Compendium of Trilogy

 

COMPENDIUM

 

I imagine a man, who had but a little dust in his eyes, come and ask me,

“Tim, I am lost.  I was abandoned when I was a child and have been trying to find my way home ever since.  But I keep running into dead ends.  Can you help me?”

And I would answer, “Yes.  I will give you my knowledge, my wisdom, and my love.  But only your own spirit in you can fulfill you.  It will guide you and raise you itself from childhood, through adolescence, and into adulthood like it did me.”

And the man said, “But I am a man.  How can I become a child again?”

“A man on the outside, but a terrified child on the inside who was never given the knowledge, wisdom, and love it needed.  Do you only see what you want to see or what the world wants you to see?  If so, you have never been your own truth, until now.  That is why your spirit will raise you to discover your own truth to be a true man.  And the only way is its way.”

And the man asked, “But won’t I just become its truth?  Many people and religions and scholars I have asked for help, and they have left me aside because I would not become their truth?”

And I would reply, “I hope so.  Most have planks in their eyes as you once had, but you have now only a bit of dust because you have been searching a long time.  And you see something that you desire.  Possibly a spirit that loves you and accepts you no matter what.  A spirit that will not abandon you because it is of God that can be nothing except unconditional love because that is what God is.  What more can you ask for?”

“What is the difference between dust and a plank?” asked the man.

“When working with wood,” I explained, “You can not see through a plank, but while the wood is worked, you can see through the dust that it produces.  Some will leave the plank “as is” never to be worked on and another will work on the plank imagining what it could look like in the end.

To not work the plank means to deny your spirit altogether and remain in the First Heaven.  To work the plank and see through the dust to where you want to be means that you are ready to connect with your spirit and leave the First Heaven to walk in faith with it in the Second.  Here, don’t be afraid of what I show you.  I have a gift of creative communication and a great imagination.  I communicate to people in all different ways — through scripture, psychology, everyday language, and even music and art.  But it’s all based in reality.

See, you heard something in you say that it’s time to move on.  Am I correct?  You are where you don’t want to be.  This is because those that are where you are choose the plank over the dust.  And when it appears that they are growing, they are actually only putting a new spin on the outside on an old way of life on the inside.  In other words, they manipulate you and gaslight you all in the name of saving your soul.  But the truth is that they are children afraid of venturing into the unknown as I was.  So much that they believe in the Holy Spirit but are too ashamed to meet it and walk with it and in it.

Do you see the Harbors on the River of Life in the map?  The first is Believe and the second is Ask.  This is where you ask for your spirit to come and reside in you so that you can start a real relationship with it.  Many never get out of the Harbor of Believe and nearly all never get past the eighth Harbor of Accept because they do not believe they are worthy enough to be loved and accepted unconditionally, though this is what they’ve been searching for all their lives.  They sabotage themselves.

People like this don’t care how they save you; as long as you’re saved.  Believe me, you were saved before, and they aren’t even saved yet.  I know because I’ve been there.   They advertise a new way, but at the root is still the old way.  But you truly seek a new you, and you can have it when you decide to follow the spirit in you rather than them because God’s spirit in you is the real you. 

The spirit’s truth is truth common to all but very few recognize it because they choose to believe in those that deceive or are being deceived and will not believe it.   In order to understand (see) deeper, you must mature farther.  Most will not or were never given the opportunity by their religion or family, like mine, for one reason or the other.  But it all stems from some deep-rooted fear, even phobia.

One day I will leave you with my knowledge of the truth that is my unconditional love, and your spirit will come to clear your conscience and become your new conscience.  You will see me in it because of the knowledge I have given you.  You will come to see the deceiver for who he or she really is and the false conscience you have adopted and the true conscience that you will have been given by your spirit.  And though you believe, you still will not trust it fully when it comes.

But one day while walking in faith with your spirit, you will know its acceptance of you as I have accepted you in my own heart and soul.  And on that day, you will realize those who have only said they accept you to appease our Father but know nothing of their spirit or our Father.  And because of this, you will move ahead of them–these weak creatures you fear so much–a little at a time as they try to manipulate you, and then eventually excommunicate you.  And it will be then that you will know I have told you the truth as any friend would another, and you will accept their excommunication as fortunate and let them be in their way.  Then you will cross over into the freedom that you have desired all your life.

It will be then that they will begin to fall into the sea and die while you remain where you are and live gaining the wisdom that is common to all, but again, few will ever come to know it.  And one day you will speak to others about your spirit and our Father and let everyone be, including you, as everyone is because that is love, which is our Father to whom you will be rightly handing it over.  It is our Father who calls them more times than one could ever count, and they can either choose to hear or refuse to hear.  And when you have the confidence to let everyone be, you and your spirit and our Father will become One.  You will be complete; the real and true you.  You will have gone from the pretend you, to your, and into our, and you will become You.

It will be then that you will live in all confidence as You forever as the intimate and, thus truly complete adult You whom you’ve become–collectively you in your spirit and your spirit in you and both together in our Father respecting each in the fullness that each is.  And those who are truly weak, even Death, will have fully fallen to their death and never to be feared again.  And you will then know how sweetly content Life really is.

And on that day, no one will be able to discern between you, your spirit, and our Father.  You will be your own reality.  You will be three-in-one indivisible, and thus, unconquerable because, in each of your steps, you will consult the wisdom of your spirit and do nothing without pouring forth the love from our Father.”

And the man asked, “What is this life like where you will be raising me?”

And then the Teacher replied, “I can only give you the knowledge of it, but you will have to experience it for yourself.  Your mind will have the knowledge, but your heart will become troubled when I leave you.  This will be like dying your first death as you enter into your own desert.  You may believe that your fear will overwhelm you, but instead your belief and faith in your spirit within will prevent you this as long as you obey it.  Then you will begin to trust.  And in the end, you will become content when your spirit gives you over to our Father at the time of your second death, as our Father gives Himself over to us.”

“Who is our Father?” asked the man.

“Our Father is the Love that you will come to know and live in and you and your spirit in Him,” the Teacher replied.  “I give to you your spirit to be refined, but in the end, the three will be intimate with one another because you will live in our Father and also in your spirit and they in you.  This will be a heaven on this earth for you.  And on that day, you will be complete in the eyes of our Father, and the world will look upon You and refuse You as they do Me.  But some with only a bit of dust in their eyes will not look away and come to You as you did Me.”

And the man screamed, “I am terrified!”

And the Teacher replied to the man, “So then, in the end, you will be content even more.  You are facing what you have feared to face.  That is why I said you are still a fearful child.  You must choose either to trust those familiar to you whom you have seen all your life or in your spirit who you will have just seen.  One will take you back and the other will take you forward.”

“I have trusted so many all my life,” said the man, “and they have never been able to fill the void that is left dark and empty inside me.  I have no other choice but to trust you because without, I will have lost all hope in anything or anyone.”

And the Teacher said, “Do not trust what you can only see now, but trust the spirit in you that you will be seeing.  I see a brave warrior where you see a terrified person unworthy of the fight.  Don’t you see that this is why you have yet to find the bridge that enables you to cross over?  Whom do you idolize, our Father or your deceivers?  When you answer this question you will then be ready, and I will no longer appear in front of you but leave you with your spirit to rise up inside of you, and battle together.

And so you ask what is this life like.

Life is like three heavens.  The first is to learn from the mind about yourself.  This takes standing in belief that leads to knowledge.  The second is to accept from the heart yourself as you are.  This takes strength by walking in faith with your spirit that leads to wisdom.  And the third is to deliver from the soul You to others so they too will be free and live within our Father as their spirit and He will live within them.  This takes loving others unconditionally that leads to peace.

There is a river in front of you that flows from the beginning of the first heaven, through the second, and to the end of the third.  Even now, you do not recognize that you had already entered into it while gaining knowledge from me and that your journey through the first heaven is nearing its end because you have not turned away.

There is much more that I can tell you, but your spirit will tell you all that I know and much more for only you to know, and its words will become low hanging fruit on each side of the river.  It will keep you on the straight and narrow.  If you eat the fruit when you have drifted onto the river’s edge,  you will be able to correct your way and continue to assert your life on the river again and in the love that is our Father and find the contentment that is all of Us together.

And once you intimately understand that You are the culmination of your Father, you, and your spirit in One, You will let go of who you were and leave behind–that is, be indifferent to–the people of the world who are ignorant and indignant and their ignorant and indignant ways, and You will become absolute.  On that day, you will be devoted to delivering You without fear because you will know You, the real and true you–the truth of you–the culmination of the knowledge of you, the wisdom of your spirit, and the love of our Father as one complete Self.

No longer will you pre-judge the strict goodness or badness of things by what you think you know; by what the right and left people and their churches have judged you to be.  Rather, now that you are aware of it, you will move on ahead of this good and this bad and seek the knowledge of who truly loves you, then trust the wisdom of it, and deliver it in pure unconditional love, that is in unprejudiced, selfless, prideless, uncorrupted, humbled, real, and true.  For your spirit, who will become your best friend, and our Father will live in You as Truth and you will become Truth that is the reality of the one and only True Church of You; the True You.  For the wisdom of the spirit and the Love of our Father is the same, but each of you is different.

Having transformed from self to Self where Truth has replaced prejudice and thus your pride has died, You will deliver God’s message in full and unabridged; the message being You given to and for you.  And then You will experience Heaven-on-Earth, what others may call Nirvana with a Remainder in the Sea of Free.  And when Your time on Earth is complete, You will be delivered into Heaven Itself.

So, I leave you now.  I have given you my knowledge, my spirit’s wisdom, and our Father’s love.  When you are ready, go and have faith in your spirit and gain the knowledge of who you are so that it may guide you in wisdom to our Father who is Love within You and who is in love with all of Us. 

What will you decide when you hear your spirit say ‘Come’?”