The Book of the Seven Sermons (Book #3 of the Trilogy)


Table of Contents

About the Author ………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. iii
The Lord’s Prayer ………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. iv
Greetings to My Brothers and Sisters in Christ …………………………………………………………………..1
Sermon 1: Looking for Answers Here and Up Ahead …………………………………………………………. 2
Sermon 2: Gathering the Christian Children …………………………………………………………………….. 8
Sermon 3: Those Worthy of the Journey …………………………………………………………………………. 11
Sermon 4: On Your Journey Ahead ………………………………………………………………………………… 14
Sermon 5: Discipline in the Journey ……………………………………………………………………………….. 17
Sermon 6: Our Last Supper Before Moving Out ………………………………………………………………. 20
Sermon 7: Acts Speak Louder than Words ………………………………………………………………………. 23
Benediction to My Brothers and Sisters ……………………………………………………………………………25
Appendix I. Map of the Journey …………………………………………………………………………………….. 26
Appendix II. Being Made Aware of God ………………………………………………………………………….. 27
Appendix III. Life in the 1st Heaven ……………………………………………………………………………….. 33
Appendix IV. Life in the 2nd Heaven ………………………………………………………………………………. 41
Appendix V. Life in the 3rd Heaven (Resting in God’s SOUL)…………………………………………….. 45



About the Author

Tim DiMella was born in Miami, Florida, where at two years old he had a 2% chance of living. Thirty years later, he left everything behind, and stepped out with God. Tim was the pastor and founder of ChristWalk of the Tennessee Valley on-line ministry up until 2017. He is the author of two published Christian books, A River in Redstone, and It Has Been My Experience (A Book That Holds Eighty-Eight of Life’s Most Secret Wisdoms).  The former was recomposed into an epic poem entitled “I AM on The River of Life”.  The latter was retitled “Wisdom From the River.”  These two books can be found in full and free on his website at, also known as In the summer of 2017 and in the midst of the church’s reflection over its potential splitting, Tim was given the duty as Supply Pastor and Lay Servant/Speaker at a local church in the Northeast Alabama District of the United Methodist Church where he preached much of the content in this book for approximately three months.  He also provided this book to the Committee of Bishops presiding over the decision.  Now a full adult in the site of God, Tim no longer is part of any organized religion, and is his own Christian Spirit Church as explained in his website at  He lives in Madison, Alabama, USA with his wife of 28 years.  Completing his journey up the river, this third book, as far as he knows, is his last spiritual book delivered to you his readers.



The Lord’s Prayer

Our Father, Who art in heaven
Hallowed be Thy Name;
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us;
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, forever.


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Greetings to My Brothers and Sisters in Christ

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
In the days of the Lord, of Jesus Christ my Savior, have I been told through the Holy Spirit to travel in love to those who to Jesus guides me. People of all kinds, even those in the Spirit in our churches, are in great disarray by mortal thinking and it is not by the tongue and ruler shall I confront but by the ear and the heart shall He use me to help change that which is in their mortal heart, if their mortal wills allow. So, I will listen patiently and speak by the words of our Lord. And I will help them become as one for the Lord by helping Him in the Great Commission deliver them to Him upon His return.

I am speaking of people and religious factions. It is, as I understand, the calling from Christ among all His Christian Children. As Caiaphas had prophesied, “Jesus would die for the Jewish nation, and not only for that nation but also for the scattered children of God, to bring them together and make them one (JN 11:51-52).” The Apostle Paul affirms this by saying, “And He made known to us the mystery of His will according to his good pleasure, when he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ (Eph 1:9-10).” The Lord Jesus Christ is calling me back into that one head to deliver His people back unto Him.

For they are of goodness because they are My Children, sayeth the Lord, but the beginning has begun and you are to gather up. You are My messenger, I have told you this from earlier on. And now you are also My deliverer. Seek in him who chooses to give and let the others be who do not. I will and have given to you the first of many churches, but it is the first that I will provide My guidance in My teachings. I will give to you what you have prayed for, a mentor in Jesus Christ. For though I am the All, I shall speak through the Spirit and so you shall follow My Son and your wife will affirm His love, whether in rejection due to feelings of unworthiness or reception in feelings of worthiness. If you are in mortality, seek her, for she will wear My name (because knowledge comes easily to the discerning) (Pr 14:6). You will become a mentor to many and I will give you people to whom you may trust to mentor you.

Cry My Love for the time has come, but the end is glorious. Your lifetime may not reveal to you My coming, for no one will ever know My coming, but I will be there either in yours or theirs. My Guiding Hand is upon you as we speak and more of My teachings are to come for the journey of your everlasting life. Your wife I have chosen, as well. I tell you, the two of you shall be My Children in My Beautiful Kingdom here in Heaven. Peace be with you, My Love.

Each of the seven sermons in this book provides wisdoms to help you develop as a Christian. These wisdoms contained in these sermons are from my own experiences and collaboration with the Holy Spirit throughout my life through trauma, trial, and tribulation, and also celebration.

May they help you in your own journey.

In the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit,

Love and Peace+,

Tim DiMella


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Sermon 1: Looking for Answers Here and Up Ahead

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Where are you looking for answers? In 2Corinthians Chapter 12 Verse 2, Paul says, “I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven.”

As you may or may not know from when I showed some of you the “Map of the Journey”, there is the 1st Heaven in the Kingdom of Heaven where we began as spiritual children through just our belief in Jesus Christ. We made a conscious choice to believe God as an Unconditional Loving God. We chose to believe that Jesus was the Spirit in the flesh who came from God to teach us about God and that, through Jesus’ death and resurrection, we now have the Holy Spirit within us once we believe. Our belief more than likely came about first through someone telling us about Jesus and secondly, our reading of the Bible (Scripture).

Once we chose to believe, we went to a church built on earth—that is, outside of us. The church taught us all about what scripture meant and to obey scripture. What the church rarely taught us was that it is good to go to the church for basics about Christ. But after the basics, the Spirit within us should be our focus and not the church. So, those in the 1st Heaven continue to live as children obeying scripture and going to church, which are both good up to a point, but not yet having met and communed personally with the Spirit within them after being baptized. After baptism in the 1st Heaven, or in some cases confirmation if you were baptized as an infant, you are supposed to commune with the Spirit within you and move on to form a more intimate relationship with the Spirit by moving into the 2nd Heaven. The church had, for the most part, become the Spirit for us. And this, my brothers and sisters, is exactly what Jesus warned us about in Scripture in Matthew Chapter 23.

Simon Peter, who Jesus had to reprimand quite often, is a good example of someone in the 1st heaven at the time. He continued to deny the spirit’s voice and instructions, and deep down wound up secretly being ashamed of himself for doing so and was afraid of what may happen if he turned around and faced the Spirit at the end of the Book of John.

This 1st Heaven is where most Christians live. Other than some basic or fundamental answers, you will find very few answers from people in the 1st Heaven because they are so wrapped up in the natural world around them avoiding God and themselves deep down, and are constantly in a tug of war being angry with and trying to control the universe and fix the people in it, that they can’t hear God’s answers even if they did ask Him questions. Besides, they fool themselves into
believing you—who are more mature in the Spirit—are really the ones who are lost, and they are the ones who know everything. Those in the 2nd Heaven know that the children in the 1st Heaven really know very little because they refuse to mature. Love is very conditional in the 1st Heaven. Most people in the 1st Heaven know it only as “the world” because they are still so attached to the natural world filled with those who don’t believe in an unconditionally loving God and Spirit within them, even though they have begun their spiritual mental maturation starting with Belief. Heaven to them is really what the 3rd Heaven is that I will discuss later. This is all part of denial and illusion because the attraction of the natural world is still too close for them. Also, it is very scary to mature—that is, venture deeper within oneself to his or her Truth.

The whole venture is supposed to progress naturally in our Christian journey. No one is supposed to stay in the 1st Heaven throughout their lives. But what you see commonly in religious institutions is just the more mature children in the 1st Heaven up ahead trying to control the less mature and more vulnerable children entering through the door of Belief. The more mature children actually become a wall between the 1st and 2nd Heavens because they are the ones most afraid to continue on as the Spirit has prompted them, and so those wanting to break through are willing to uproot their own deep-rooted insecurities with their Spirit’s guidance. They choose to move out further into their journey by relying solely on their Spirit within them if they must. And that, my brothers and sisters, is called a willing to Act in Faith and takes a great deal of courage. So now you know why there are a lot less people in the 2nd Heaven than the 1st. Those who go against the norm of religion institutions will more than likely make it into the 2nd Heaven because they must rely now on their Spirit within them and not just religious leaders or their written words. Those who go against the norm are the more courageous, and later become more knowledgeable and wiser—though they be called heretics by those in the 1st. And this is why there are less people in the world’s churches today, and getting fewer. And why at the end of the Book of Revelation, it states that there is no longer a temple but just God and Light filling the place. People have become more courageous, and more and more are entering into the 2nd Heaven because they are not afraid to break through (or progress through) the wall. Soon the wall will have such a huge hole in it that church will become obsolete unless the Church is willing to progress as well.

I, as all of us who are Christian, started in this first heaven. And while there, I too searched for answers everywhere I could from who and what I saw.I traveled over land,
I swam through water,
I looked up at the stars and imagined other worlds,
I searched the outermost reaches of my mind from what the world taught me,
I tried to figure out “why” when it came to sufferings of others and my own,
I even tried to live my life through others.
And in all those journeys, I only found basic answers. I knew I had to continue on if any of my deeper questions would be answered.

See, we have two sets of eyes. One set looks outward, while the other looks inward. The set that looks outward is the world’s eyes and is the set that I tried to use to find answers while in the natural world. This set is our human eyes, and they see the world as you try to make sense of it. But the world doesn’t make any sense while you are in it, because if you could see with your spiritual eyes, you would see it and everyone in it scattered to the wind without any true rhyme or reason to it, except that they are all trying to avoid something by trying to control it or suppress it.

They grasp at straws, trying to gain the most important straw of all. But they never find it because, in the natural world, all everyone can draw is the short straw.

Now the set of eyes that looks inward is not commonly used. This set is our spiritual eyes that begin when we enter the door of Belief in the Kingdom of Heaven. When we begin to use this set of eyes, we find answers—hidden secrets—about the world and everything that lives in it including us. This is because our spiritual eyes seek answers from God through His Spirit in us in the heaven we are in. And God and, thus our Spirit, has all the answers—He is the long straw amongst all the short straws.

When we choose to believe (John 3:16) and repent and be baptized of our SIN in the natural world—which I will discuss later—we leave the natural world and enter into through the door of the 1st Heaven. When we are ready to go into the 2nd Heaven, we too must become baptized (confirmed) and heed God’s voice (Acts 19), so that we may begin to use our spiritual eyes in a deeper and more personal way with the Spirit in what is known as the 2nd Heaven. In this heaven, we confess ourselves to God and fully accept His grace because of Jesus’ death and resurrection and what it stands for. Therefore, we stop seeing ourselves and each other as sinners, but realize ourselves as only human.

And by realizing ourselves only human, we are no longer ashamed and are able to look at ourselves in the face and move forward toward God in the 3rd Heaven by the guidance of our Holy Spirit within us. We come to accept His grace and by doing so, we are able to feel good about ourselves again. This kind of pride is our esteem born out of gratitude through adolescence and not egotistical pride as what we once had in childhood. We actually begin to feel God’s presence in us—known as feeling alive—and not just know we are reborn as it promises in scripture, and we break down and cry because of it. So much feeling comes alive in us, that we become humbled and so grateful to Him that it is our gratitude that drives our devotion to Him. We realize that it was us suppressing our feelings in childhood that prevented us from being free, and thus, suppressing our ability to devote ourselves in our own special ways. We had indeed been our own oppressors.

No matter what, we will never be perfect and we come to realize the reality of that. But we know that we don’t have to be perfect in order to be loved, and it is that exact reason, that we are able to continue with ourselves in life in greater devotion and one day culminating in peace and joy.

Let me give you this poem, so that you can see what I mean:

“Just Bein’ Human”
There is nothing you can or will ever do
That will make God ever leave or stop loving you.
Cheat, steal, or borrow,
Love today or hate tomorrow.
If one moment cloudy and the next moment sunny,
Cry because it’s sad, cry because it’s funny,
Or maybe ‘cause I ain’t workin’ and I ain’t got no money.
Do you think I’m lazy or I’m crazy to live with all this feelin’?
Well, I ain’t low and on the floor,
And I don’t keep hittin’ that high ceilin’.
You gonna keep all that control and keep judgin’ you and me?
Or are you gonna give it a go in some sweet and decent ambiguity?
Trip on a stone, Throw me a bone.
Write when ya wanna, Send it to Santa.
Whatever you do, do it whateva,
Just do it in love and soon you’ll feel betta.
But if you don’t, that’s okay,
He’ll still love you either way.
And if you slipped and if you fell,
It’s probably ‘cause you slipped and fell.
Who knows the why, the how, the what, and the who?
Just keep on doin’ that thing that you do.
Then one day, you’ll wake up and say,
“Isn’t this nice. Hey, this is okay!”
So, just do your best to love one another,
Show some love to your sister or brother.
‘Cause if God is perfect, then He knew what He was doin’.
Show that you love Him,
By Just Bein’ Human.

In this 2nd Heaven, you can find many answers, but it takes a lot of sufferance (which is defined as enduring patience) while mentally and emotionally battling to weed out the truth about you from the fiction you believed about yourself in the 1st Heaven from yourself and others. This can be a very confusing time, which is why the 2nd Heaven is known as the adolescent heaven where it can feel like in the Book of Revelation in that you are feeling like you are in a battle for your life between what you knew and experienced in your past childhood and what you may be afraid of experiencing in your future adulthood. And a person needs to commune with his or her Spirit more than ever and fully accept His grace during this time. There can be no doubt for accepting God’s grace—that is accepting yourself human rather than a sinner. If you do this, adolescence will be much easier for you as you go into the Harbor of Devote. Things will start to become much clearer in Devote because the Harbor of Accept is like a bridge from Old to New, from Dark to Light, and from B&W to Color on your journey to God.

And then there is the 3rd Heaven—known as the adult heaven. This is the heaven where God actually lives in His City. It is what we all think of what heaven will be like—like at the end of the Book of Revelation—and we commonly just call Heaven. The 3rd Heaven is where we have become so confident in God, His Son, and the Holy Spirit, that we completely surrender ourselves to Him. Our childhood (the 1st Heaven) has fallen away or died. We have transformed into spirit. We rely on our spiritual eyes for everything because we have been given all the answers we need, and we come to realize inside and out that we were always a spirit born of the One True Holy Spirit. We see everything very clearly now. We see all of God’s Kingdom clearly from on-high because we came out victorious. We are now true adults.

As Jesus said in the Book of John Chapter 3 Verse 6, “Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit.”

Yes, these people are the true adults of the Kingdom of God and will be given a unique room in the third Heaven as promised us by Jesus in the Book of John Chapter 14 Verse 2 where Jesus says, “My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?” They, as princes and princesses of the True King, may become spiritual parents to free-up the spiritual children and adolescents in their journey by becoming one or more of the fruits on the Trees of Life. In other words, you are now able to share your wisdom of the journey to help them reach God.

The difference between the 3rd Heaven and the other two is not needing the world to confirm your existence (i.e., that you are). If everyone disappeared except you, then in a short time or maybe almost immediately, a child in the 1st Heaven would think he doesn’t exist and others existed somewhere else because he is not yet in touch with his Spirit. In a longer time, an adolescent in the 2nd Heaven would do the same because he does not absolutely trust (is confident) that the Spirit in him will stay. He still very much doubts the Spirit in some form or fashion. However, in the 3rd Heaven, he has an intimate relationship with the Spirit and would say “Oh, well” because he is confident (having no doubt) that the Spirit is there and will be there forever and he talks to the Spirit all the time. See, the existence of the Spirit within proves the existence of him. And the more you become intimate with the Spirit, the more you become confident that you exist and will always exist. Therefore, in the 3rd Heaven, he knows that he doesn’t need to rely on anybody else but the Spirit, which is known as Freedom.

So then, let’s summarize this. The Spirit is our existence, also known as the “I Am”. SIN is Seeing Inside Nobody or not yet acknowledging (believing in) the existence of. It is the only sin that we need to be concerned with. Everything else is covered through Jesus’ death and resurrection. So then, once we acknowledge (believe in) the I Am, no longer are we sinners, but only humans, and we set up our churches on the outside. When we reach adolescence, we leave the outside churches to follow only the Spirit, which is the Book of Revelation up to Chapter 21. A Need is a desire for something to exist or be that we pursue because we be-lieve in a God who can get it for us. Confidence is knowing the I Am intimately and so you know that you absolutely exist. Freedom is when we stop needing the world to confirm that we exist, and so, we can now let go of the world to just be with the I Am. And Peace is when we come to know no difference between our existence and the I Am’s existence, in other words, Revelation Chapters 21 and 22. Therefore, after we die, we as spirit are the same embodiment as the Holy Spirit because we were born of Him and in a way, are Him.

So then, exploring the Trinity or Triune God, Jesus came to the 1st Heaven for us who had been baptized by John the Baptist so that we may come to see him with our human eyes as a spiritual leader, and thus, recognizing our existence. He died and was resurrected so that we could begin to see him with our spiritual eyes on the inside in the 2nd Heaven. This was the end of being a child, and the beginning of adolescence. So then we no longer needed only the leaders of the church on the outside but could rely on the Spirit within. We not only recognize our existence, but begin trusting in our existence. Then after we devoted over time to the Spirit within, we came to trust the Spirit so much that we became confident in the Spirit. This was the end of our adolescence, and our beginning of being an adult in the 3rd Heaven. And finally we would someday physically die in Peace in the 3rd Heaven to become Absolutely Peaceful not knowing the difference between us and the I Am. But before our physical death, we still had the most tiniest inkling of doubt—maybe not even consciously being aware of it—because, obviously, we were still human. This is the difference between living in Heaven-on-Earth and living in just Heaven.

Now do you understand life and the living? Peace is where you join with God and His Spirit. It can be said that where you physically die in the journey is where you will start up again afterwards somewhere else. This I can only speculate. But what I do know is that a person can only live and die in the final harbor of Peace after having the confidence to totally let go of the world.

Father, thank you for the death and resurrection of your Son allowing us to come to You through this heaven so that, in the end, we may enter into your City in the next. Help us to always use our spiritual eyes to find your Spirit in us and walk with Him so that we may mature into confidence and be able to deliver you to others. Though our bodies may get bruised and wither a bit along the way, our souls will not because You are always with us now and in the everlasting.

In Jesus’ name. Amen.


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Sermon 2: Gathering the Christian Children

Brothers and Sisters.
Choose love over everything else (1Cor 13). Listen to the Spirit that is talking through me and not from the person you see before you. What you see is only a body, but the words are of the Spirit from within. “When you are ready to enter into Adolescence, separate yourselves from Childhood. Keep the good crop and discard the weeds, and move forward with the grace that God has given you, and do not look back until you unite yourselves with the Spirit.”

Those in the Kingdom right now who are in the Spirit and see the Spirit clearly, help your brothers and sisters see. At the very least. you can clearly discern the way of the Spirit apart from deviancy. Help your brothers and sisters discern. Show them and teach them what to look for so that they may see those for who they really are and say, “Be gone, I choose the God of Love over you! I choose to defend my brother or sister and love them as I love my lord, Jesus Christ!

The truth is that, after Jesus died, every type of person found the calling of the Holy Spirit (as did you and I) and responded and entered into the Kingdom through their belief (as did you and I). And they were accepted into the Kingdom by the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit because they repented of their deviant ways, as did each of us, and accepted God’s Spirit of Unconditional Love.

So you ask, “Okay Tim, what is deviant and what is not deviant?”

Brothers and Sisters, deviancy is an inhumane (extreme or self-righteous) way of behaving that coincides with Seeing Inside Nobody (SIN). It is the only sin unto God because of the death and resurrection of His Son. SIN is reserved for the likes of rapists (or what Paul calls the sexually immoral in tune with Genesis 19:5) and those who believe they are God like sociopaths and psychopaths who are extremely narcissistic and who have no remorse after committing a crime. It is also reserved for idolaters who may believe in a god but yet to believe in the existence of The God Who is Unconditionally Loving and His Spirit in them that can only be done through believing in the existence of Christ through his death and resurrection.

All other behaviors are not deviant but only human because somewhere inside is a sincere search by a believer for an unconditionally-loving God. Some more mature than others, and thus, further along in the Spirit than others. But human nonetheless. Therefore, focus on your sister and brother as a human being and no longer a sinner. Take the word “sinner” out of your vocabulary unless there is truly Seeing Inside Nobody (SIN).

But you still say, “Tim, but what about scripture?” Scripture enables children to shield themselves between them and the extremists in the natural world so at least they are safe for the time being until after they believe and commit to the Spirit within. But if they do not choose to act in faith through adolescence by following the Spirit that is within them—like a call of rapture through what some may define as a purgatory of sorts—to be transformed into full adulthood, then they will remain children in Childhood never knowing the shield of confidence rather than the shield of the outside church and scripture.

But it is only when you confess, “I am no better than anyone else. I am human too. I need my Spirit,” and accept Him to lead your life as master and personal counselor, then you will experience the true nature and power of the Spirit in you and you will have left Childhood behind. You will no longer need the church and scripture to surround yourselves in because everything in scripture and more is already in the Spirit in you to seek counsel from to whom you follow and obey. All you have to do is ask. What the church, if it has matured as well, is needed for is fellowship in love during this time.

So then for anyone experiencing the Journey, be far removed from Seeing Inside Nobody, and be very discerning on who is men among men and women among women. There is only one way to know this for sure:

If a person has not searched his own soul and admitted or confessed his soul empty and aching before God AND has not proceeded to do the hard work to dig down and work through it with heart and emotion to become intimate with God not just in verse but in Spirit, he or she is not a man or woman of God. In other words, only those in Devote after being filled with the grace of God through Accept or who have gone even further may be a pastor. Any other has not yet become a full adult in the eyes of God. Therefore, no longer allow children to lead children because children must grow up knowing the full grace of God in their lives in order to become full adults.

As it says in Proverbs Chapter 27 Verse 19, “As water reflects a face, so a man’s heart reflects the man.”

And Isaiah Chapter 29 Verse 13, as the Lord says, ‘These people come near me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men.’”

And Jesus says this in Matthew Chapter 23:5 “Everything they do is done for people to see: They [always make sure you see them carrying their bible and wear their ornate garments long for you to see]; 6 they love the place of honor at banquets and the most important seats in the synagogues; 7 they love to be greeted with respect in the marketplaces and to be called ‘Rabbi’ by others. 8 “But you are not to be called ‘Rabbi,’ for you have one Teacher, and you are all brothers. 9 And do not call anyone on earth ‘father,’ for you have one Father, and he is in heaven. 10 Nor are you to be called instructors, for you have one Instructor, the Messiah. 11 The greatest among you will be your servant. 12 For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.

And also this where I’m paraphrasing to make it more modern:

• “Woe to you, Pastors and Preachers, you hypocrites! You lead my people to the doors of the river as if you’ve done something so wonderful, and then when the door opens, you push them through, and wash your hands of them. You leave them standing, and you are long gone. You don’t even help them into the boat!

• [From Mark 12:40] “Woe to you, Pastors and Preachers, you hypocrites! You travel over land and sea to win your converts by devouring them behind closed doors those who are vulnerable and crippled and all in the name of Jesus, and then put on a show or elaborate ceremony making lengthy prayers as if the length of your prayers could ever make up for the your insensitivity. And when you have succeeded, you make them feel even more guilty and ashamed and embarrassed and lost than you feel yourself as you parade them in the media before your congregation and those in higher positions all while saying “Praise be to Jesus!”

• “Woe to you, Pastors and Preachers! You ‘Send the offering plate around two or three times, and then you contribute nothing to the poor who have made you rich.’ You give a tenth of your spices—mint, dill and cumin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law—justice, mercy and faithfulness. You should have practiced the latter, without neglecting the former. You strain out a gnat but swallow a whole camel.

• “Woe to you, Pastors and Preachers, you hypocrites! You make the outside of your churches look beautiful to entice people in, but inside you are full of greed and self-indulgence. Blind Pastor! First clean up your inside, and then your outside also will be made clean. You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean. And you “build” tombs for the prophets and decorate the graves of the famous whom to you should be righteous whether they are or not. And in the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous yourself, but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness. And this is what Jesus says about this in Matthew Chapter 7 Verses 21 through 23:21“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of Heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in Heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not [preach] in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles [and deliver to you many people]?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

Father, speak to me. Help me understand, and I will listen. I choose to draw closer to You whose love is unconditional and away from the conditions of the world. Give me the conviction to do what You will me to do and not what I fear me to do. Give me the strength and courage to focus and be baptized in you—not as a repentance for what I did in the world—for that world is dead and buried—but prepare me for what I am about to do in the world ahead that is alive.  Help me understand that you have judged me worthy of the journey and no longer in the world where there is only pain and suffering and gnashing of teeth. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.


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Sermon 3: Those Worthy of the Journey

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
Before we believed, we first needed to be informed of a God who loves us unconditionally so much that He sent His Son Jesus to show us God’s true Spirit and die for us that we can receive this Spirit.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God. He was with God in the beginning. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in those whose minds are filled with darkness, and so they could not see it because they never allowed themselves to know of it. (JN 1)

For God so loved the world that He gave us this Word in the form of Jesus Christ, God’s one and only Son, that whoever allows himself to know of it, thus believing in it just even the tiniest amount, will come to be saved by him. (JN 3:16)

If you believe, then God says to you to come into the light; for the extremists live in darkness. Will you go? Perhaps you are afraid. So let me ease your mind by explaining to you who He is that is asking you to come.

I have had instilled in me early in life that when bad things happen in my life, God doesn’t like me very much anymore, and I have to qualify for His Love by being a perfect saint.

But, friends, this just isn’t so. That is not God, but from a person who has been deceived. God, Himself, cried out to me and showed me that He loves me no matter what. God, by way of His Son Jesus Christ, has taught me that I am of great worth to Him. I choose to rely on the drive and guidance from the Holy Spirit, which is God’s Will given freely to us.

Then from that I will be guided on the right path and begin to feel valuable and deserved even though I am always worthwhile.

Many childish parents, leaders, and teachers still living in Childhood teach you and reprimand you for not doing good, when all along you were first trying to search for who you are, trying to reach the Spirit within you, which must be the number one priority in your life. They call you sinners. Many of you have relied on these same people and others to be the driving force for your own fulfillment. Many of them have volunteered to take that place.

But No, it is impossible for you to find unhindered, continuous love from these others. That you will only find from God and the Spirit He has given you inside you.

When you receive Christ, you will learn that God has given you the treasure chest called the Holy Spirit within and that He gives you God’s Truth, which is the treasure of what all you are searching for. And then you will not only think you are worthy or feel you are worthy, but you will know you are worthy to God to be part of Him, in Him, and with Him.

Friends, shame counteracts love (1Cor 4:14). Shame comes with our disappointment of others. Disappointment comes with our expectations of others and ourselves in the way we think things should be done, but that is not reality.

We must not expect others to do right in the way we think they should do it, but only perceive their actions as either human or Seeing Inside Nobody (SIN). No longer should sin be synonymous with being human, and no longer should human beings be called sinners. It is hurtful and no longer true due to the death and resurrection of our Lord.

Mothers and fathers, we must show our children affection and forgiveness. Most children place us on a pedestal. If you can forgive your child by first forgiving yourselves, then your child can forgive himself. Paul explains this well in 2Cor 2:5-11.

We obey those who obey our God of Unconditional Love. And we obey God because God loved us first. Not the other way around. When you receive the Holy Spirit, you are given the tools to understand this.

How is it that God had already decided to send you His Own Son just so that you must first qualify for His Love? “What should I say to you? That ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or say, ‘Hey you, Get up and walk and Get over it!’? It is because a person feels forgiven is why he becomes alive and he can get up and walk (MT 9:1-8), not the other way around. It is not if you get up and walk, then I’ll forgive you. That is not love. That is not God.

Worship the Lord first. He loves you even when you break His rules. And if you say sorry to Him and truly feel sorry for what you have done, His mercy will be upon you and you will be forgiven by His Grace. Then we are to continue on with the journey and be even more devoted.

Let me say this again, there is nothing you can do that the Lord will not still love you. You will always be worthwhile to receive His love whether you believe you deserve it or not by your own actions.

The hardest thing in life is to accept God’s Grace, especially when you absolutely feel you don’t deserve it. I could tell you this a million times, but you will still feel you have to qualify for it because this deception has been so engrained in your psyche. By the way, let me tell you a secret. Only a good person would have those feelings of undeservedness anyway. They may act out in unwise behavior, but it is only because they hurt inside. A bad person is a person who couldn’t care less.

But the thing is that God has made you for a purpose, and children deceiving you to believe that you are not good or as good as you are because you are human, delays that purpose.

Yes, you are human—a person with the Spirit on the inside enabling you to be more whole if you listen. And God wants you that way. You are not a mistake. And you were never supposed to feel unworthy, but you believed in this deception whether intentionally or through trickery, and you took it to heart. So God sent His Son to take care of that once and for all. But the thing is that even if you know this in your mind, your heart still doesn’t believe it, and if your heart doesn’t believe it, then you will always feel that you haven’t done enough to totally let go of feeling ashamed of yourself.

I know you still may feel that you need to do something in order to make things right. That nothing is free. And I understand this and so does God. So, then in order that your heart believes that God’s grace is upon you, then confess what is troubling your heart. That will be your qualifying moment. At minimum, confess it to God. But it will be cemented in the heart if you also confess it to others. Confess not that you have sinned, because there is no such thing as sin anymore, but confess yourself only human—that what you’ve done was just wasteful in your journey to which you are allowed, but why bother.

What is it that you seek? I think you seek love, and not only love but intimacy. This should prove to you that you are of worth to God because you can only seek that kind of love when you were born from that kind of love.

You knew it once. Was it that you may have known it at conception, or maybe even before the womb through Spirit? (Jer 1:5) That should prove to you that you were once good and are still good, but your minds have been deceived, and again you took it to heart. Now I give you the real truth so that you may clean and clear your mind and your heart.

God has sent us His Son so that, by him, that shame you took to heart can be lifted so that your mind and heart can then continue to shake hands with the one and only Holy Spirit so that you may unite with Him.

So remember, it is God who loved you first. It is God who always loves you. It is your Spirit in you who always loves you. If you will believe this, just even have the smallest amount of faith in it, then all you have to do is ask your Spirit to come—knock on the door to the place in you where your Spirit has come to live—and He will open the door and invite you into His Kingdom that resides in you (Luke 17:20-21).

So, God says to you who are afraid to knock:

My Child, My Grace is Sufficient enough. You must not run away or harm yourself to numb and forget your pain.

You must go through it with Me, for as I say I will be there with you with endless mercy and forgiveness along the way for you will mess up sometimes but I will pick you up each and every time with all My Love to journey you forward. For I tell you, as I have said, believeth in Me and your journey will not be easy but your reward will be great and you shall inherit the riches within My Kingdom. You shall be healed and thus enter through the gate and be within the walls of My Great Sanctuary. Even now, I send My Angels to retrieve you. For My Spirit within you is perfect and My Kingdom here where I dwell is so as well. Thus, My Angels are sent only from those places I dwell.

So, Believe in Me:

For My Grace is upon you even now as we speak. You are My Child, and I shall do whatever it takes to collect you and bring you back home to Me. Do not feel guilt. Do not feel shame. Feel worthwhile to receive My Love on your journey, for you are my human child, not my sinful one. For My Grace, Mercy, and Forgiveness sanctify you from your destruction. When you feel or think destructive—and you will from time to time because you are My Human Child—give them up to Me with trust and faith, and these destructive thoughts and feelings will disappear because they will be in My Hands now. And continue to live in Grace. My Grace is for you to live in forever. I have spoken My Word and My Word is a pact of unwavering truth between Me to you from now until the end of time.

Father, I feel lost and abandoned. I do not know where to turn. I do not know who I am. I knew you once, even if only a glimpse while growing up or a shimmer of light coming through. Allow it to be enough to find my hands in yours once again.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.


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Sermon 4: On Your Journey Ahead

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
A long, long time ago I asked God that when I completed the journey if I could go back and take those who have not yet met Him to come meet Him. I didn’t realize that all these years, He was granting my wish. So He allowed me the wisdom to see the path I was walking as I was walking it and journal it so that I may someday have a road map to Him for you. And now I do. But I’ve come to also realize that I am not the Spirit. I am only a spirit to hand you the journey for your own edification, and not to be with you every step of the way. That is the role of the Holy Spirit in you. My role is to finally live and die in Peace as spiritually part and physically apart from you. In other words, let you be so that I may too let be.

So, what does the journey look like?

Well, take a look at the Map of the Journey and then open your Bible to Ezekiel Chapter 47 Verses 1 through 12.

The River From the Temple:
1 The man brought me back to the entrance to the temple, and I saw water coming out from under the threshold of the temple toward the east (for the temple faced east). The water was coming down from under the south side of the temple, south of the altar. 2 He then brought me out through the north gate and led me around the outside to the outer gate facing east, and the water was trickling from the south side. 3 As the man went eastward with a measuring line in his hand, he measured off a thousand cubits and then led me through water that was ankle-deep. 4 He measured off another thousand cubits and led me through water that was knee-deep. He measured off another thousand and led me through water that was up to the waist. 5 He measured off another thousand, but now it was a river that I could not cross, because the water had risen and was deep enough to swim in—a river that no one could cross. 6 He asked me, “Son of man, do you see this?” Then he led me back to the bank of the river. 7 When I arrived there, I saw a great number of trees on each side of the river. 8 He said to me, “This water flows toward the eastern region and goes down into the Arabah, where it enters the Dead Sea. When it empties into the sea, the salty water there becomes fresh. 9 Swarms of living creatures will live wherever the river flows. There will be large numbers of fish, because this water flows there and makes the salt water fresh; so where the river flows everything will live. 10 Fishermen will stand along the shore; from En Gedi to En Eglaim there will be places for spreading nets.

The fish will be of many kinds—like the fish of the Great Sea. 11 But the swamps and marshes will not become fresh; they will be left for salt. 12 Fruit trees of all kinds will grow on both banks of the river. Their leaves will not wither, nor will their fruit fail.

Every month they will bear fruit, because the water from the sanctuary flows to them. Their fruit will serve for food and their leaves for healing.”

This Sea of Iniquity is outside the virtual door that is the mouth or entrance to the River’s first harbor called Believe from where one must struggle against the current up to the City of God where the water flows down from and is at the center of the 3rd Heaven. That Sea is where SIN lives and manifests itself.  Some who live in that world will be touched by the river’s water to make the long journey up.  But others will deny it.   Just beyond the door of the first harbor is the 1st Heaven where God’s children live in spiritual childhood. The river has flowed into it making those who touched its waters worthy of the journey. The river also flows through the 2nd Heaven or Adolescence (Ezekiel 47:1-12). Let the river be your way through Adolescence. Along the banks of the river are many trees filled with wisdoms or fruits planted there by the Spirit to sustain you in your journey until you meet Him at the end. And at the end, let it be where God lives.

Now in Ezekiel, the man shows Ezekiel as the Son of Man, Jesus, the way to the Dead Sea where the salt is made fresh by the river. Jesus, in the Book of Matthew Chapter 5 Verse 13, calls us the salt of the earth. We who are made fresh through the repentance of SIN become alive by the Spirit.

Notice in Ezekiel, that the river flows down to the sea from God’s City, so when you enter it from the sea, it will be a struggle for you because you will have to “go against the current” so to speak. It is not unlike salmon confident in their struggle upstream or upriver to the place they were born to thus spawn (spread their seed that is analogous to delivering our Truth within to the world in order to be free and in peace once again). In other words, you will have to go against the norm. No, it’s not an easy journey, and it can be a long one, but it is so well worth it when you get to the end.

Jesus knows the river. Stay together and allow He who knows about the river and its banks and hazards to help guide you and pick the fruit and give it to you to eat to nourish you and heal you from the inside out and outside in. In other words, allow Him from time to time to provide you the wisdom you need to make it where you are heading in the healthiest way.

When you accept the fruit of the Spirit and eat it to sustain you, it builds up your strength and connection with Him. In other words, it builds up your esteem.

Remember, the wisdom is from the Spirit. Low esteem is due to idolizing others who have no or very low esteem themselves. And any person who allows you to idolize Him or takes credit for what God has given Him has low esteem himself. This person has not fully accepted the grace freely from the Spirit through the death and resurrection of Jesus and is not an adult.

Now, the further you go and the closer you get to the City, the more fruit you eat and digest along the way, and so the greater your esteem.

From time to time, there will be harbors or ports along the way for you to rest before continuing on ahead, and so you will see others in and around these ports or harbors. The harbors have names—Believe, Ask, Receive, Commit (Baptize), Commune (Understand), Choose (Decide), Act, Accept, Devote, Marry (a.k.a., Confidence, Complete), Let Go (Free), and Live-and-Die-In-Peace or just Peace or Tranquility.

And if you continue in this way up the river, you will wind up making it to through pretty well off, and it will be there in the end that you will finally see Him clearly with your eyes, and you will be able to help free-up others by delivering Him to them for their journey. But be warned, many—especially in the 1st Heaven—may not want to hear what you are offering because they rarely if at all have seen the true adult and are afraid, and other people may still be narcissistic enough not to allow you to touch the Spirit.

But I am reminded of the Book of Mark Chapter 10 Verses 13-16:

While Jesus was in the world, people were bringing little children to Jesus to have him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them,
‘Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them,
for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. …And he took the children in his arms,
put his hands on them and blessed them. (MK 10:13-16)

And so too it will be for you who are courageous and go against the norm, to touch the Spirit in you and journey on ahead.

Father, thank You for you unconditional love and showing us the way, and thank You for the Holy Spirit, the same Spirit in each one of us. May we know You and hold You every day of our lives. We pray that we allow ourselves to rely on the courage You give us to make the journey.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.


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Sermon 5: Discipline in the Journey

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
In Luke Chapter 15 Verses 11-32, Jesus gives us the Parable of the Lost Son. A man’s undisciplined son has been gone so long from the Father and squandered what he had that finally he has no choice but to humble himself and go back to his father, and his father rejoices.

Hebrews Chapter12, Verses 4-11 says (And I replace some of the bigger words with easier words for the young children to understand):

4 In your struggle with [obeying God’s spirit within you], you have not yet [accepted responsibility for your actions]. 5 And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says,
“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and do not lose heart when he [gives you a real talking to],
6 because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
and he [humbles] everyone he accepts as his son.”
7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his child. For what child is not disciplined by their father? 8 If you are not disciplined—and everyone undergoes discipline—then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all. 9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us. 10 They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful [and hurtful]. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”

So then, let us begin our training. Now, in John 7:38, Jesus talks about streams (channels) of living water as off-springs from the main River (see also Proverbs 5:15-17 and Isaiah 8:7), which is a metaphor for who we are—a spirit born of the Holy Spirit. And Job says in Chapter 6 Verse 15-17 that “my brothers are as undependable as intermittent streams, as the streams that overflow when darkened by thawing ice and swollen with melting snow, but that cease to flow in the dry season, and in the heat vanish from their channels.”

We all hear that we are children of God. But we never hear that we must mature by God to be men and women of God. And little are we told about grace, because unfortunately the river narrows as we venture up it, and there are far less people near the end of the journey than at the beginning. And, therefore, there are far less people who know and feel grace for what it truly is.

But to make it to Accept (Grace), those on the Journey need discipline so that they will stay on the river and not stray. Job is a good example of discipline by the Spirit. But too harsh the discipline, and they won’t trust grace, and thus will not feel alive. They believe grace is only a trick for someone to get something else later down the road. Too light the discipline, and they never think they need grace. This is why discipline must be loving, and part of being loving is being stern (assertive and not aggressive), so that they are not terrified of grace but welcome it.

What does a child do when he is given a real talking to by his father? Even if his father is nice about it but still stern?

In order not to do the hard work and work through his feelings and accept his own wrongdoings and thus also God’s grace which is all part of one’s spiritual adolescence, the child will do at least one of three things:

Either he will take it so to heart that he will punish himself and leave his father and, therefore, the family as well. This is known as being passive.

Or he will get so mad that he will attack or threaten the father and, in doing so, hurt all the family members in the process. It is like throwing a pebble at a spot in the pond and how the ripples coming from it affect the entire pond. This is known as being aggressive.

Or, the one you really need to watch out for, the child will play his family members against themselves through switching between being passive and aggressive so that he can continue to stay within the family while not accepting any responsibility for what he did. This is called manipulation. He uses family members against each other in order to distract from himself and his own responsibilities. Usually, the first thing he does is go to the softer parent to get her or him on his side, hoping that the parent will go to the parent who disciplined him and give that parent a worse talking to as the child just sits there smiling and observing. This saturates his own ego telling him that he is the real ruler of the family because everyone else is so weak.

But some people will never learn this lesson of assertiveness. And without learning this lesson, they will not become complete within themselves. And if they cannot become complete within themselves, they cannot be effective parents for God.

And no one is complete if he or she refuses to communicate, listen to, and obey the Spirit, and accept the grace that the Spirit gives. You still believe a part of you is still in control. We must let go of childish ways and lay a strong foundation by following the Spirit within us.

Now, God is proud of you who are persevering in the maturity and completeness of Jesus. But there comes a time to discipline. And if you reject it, you only deceive yourselves and allow yourselves to remain in a state of confusion and chaos, i.e., adolescence.

Now, I could give you any number of verses in the Bible on this subject—the Parable of the Weeds, certain verses in Paul’s Letter to the Corinthians or Jesus’ Words in the Book of John—but I choose to read from the Book of Ezekiel, Chapter 13 Verses 8-12 and 20-23, and close with the Book of Revelation Chapter 2 Verses 1 through 7.

First from Ezekiel:
Discipline for being passive. 8 “‘Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says: Because of your [passiveness], I am against you, declares the Sovereign Lord. 9 My hand will be against [those who deceive themselves and others]. They will not belong to the council of my people or be listed in the records of Israel, nor will they enter the land of Israel. Then you will know that I am the Sovereign Lord.

Discipline for being false. 10 “‘Because they lead my people astray, saying, “Peace,” when there is no peace, and because, when a flimsy wall is built, they cover it with whitewash, 11 therefore tell those who cover it with whitewash that it is going to fall. Rain will come in torrents, and I will send hailstones hurtling down, and violent winds will burst forth. 12 When the wall collapses, will people not ask you, “Where is the whitewash you covered it with?”

Discipline for being manipulative. 20 “‘Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I am against those who charm and manipulate with which they ensnare my people and I will tear them from my people’s arms; and I will set free my people that they ensnare. 21 I will unveil them and save my people from their hands, and my people will no longer fall prey to their power. Then everyone will know that I am the Lord. 22 Because they disheartened my people with their lies, I will save my people from their hands. And then everyone will know that I am the Lord.’”
And now, from Revelation:

Discipline for following mechanical doctrine, rather than pure love that once motivated you. 1These are the words of the Spirit. 2 I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked [deviant] people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. 3 You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. 4 Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first. 5 Consider how far you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place. 6

Father, we ask you to teach us Your ways and give us Your wisdom. We know the real Truth and that is You. We pray that we hear Your calling to become the men and women You ask us to be. As each of us calls upon You and speaks to You and consults with You from within us, we know that we will discover our new world—Your world, and no longer be tied to the cold, harsh world we were living in.

In Jesus’ Name. Amen.


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Sermon 6: Our Last Supper Before Moving Out

Brothers and Sisters,
I’m going to start off today telling you a story. It’s a children’s story. There is a River, and the River flows through the Great Land of Life.
It flows from the first great harbor of sight.
When the children arrive, they ask themselves,
“Who am I?”
This makes the boys and girls ponder.
“Who am I?” they wonder.
Suddenly the Father appears and says,
“Did someone ask Who?
Let us head out without further ado.”
“Where, where is this place we seek?”
they ask Him with their eyebrows raised high.
“Oh, closer than you think,” the Father replies.
“Listen closely to this story about a child like you.
This child wasn’t sure,
Where it was too.
So this is what I asked the child to do.
‘My child, I’m going to give you two ways to choose.
Choose well on which one to do:
You can avoid Life and live on a cloud.
Or You can judge Life and feel very proud.’
So, to figure it out, the child went away,
and then one day,
came back to the Father, with something to say.
‘Father, I tried to escape,
but it was too late,
‘cause I have grown.
I tried to judge,
but I keep getting back, all that I’ve sown.
‘Well, my child, then what will you do?
What other choice is there for you?’
‘Father, when you gave me the choices to decide,
there was one choice
I chose to hide.
I feel so ashamed to tell you my wish.
But, Father, where am I
in all this?’
“And after He heard this aloud,
The Father was so very proud.”
‘Oh, my child, many avoid and many condemn, again and again.
But you, you wish to know your part.
And now I know,
you’re ready to start.’”

So brothers and sisters, it’s time to leave Childhood.  And for those of you more spiritually mature, Adolescence. We cannot expect, besides it is impossible, to rely on anyone other than the Spirit to know ourselves and our part. We can neither avoid nor judge Life because the Spirit is Life. Doing either will keep us in the 1st Heaven as children and prevent us from entering the 2nd Heaven of adolescence and so forth on our way to Peace in the 3rd Heaven.

Through God’s grace, we are allowed to live holy and wholly and the Holy Spirit is just that—both holy and wholly. For what is grace, but the act of accepting fine who we are in the scheme of things out of love for God and one another, to which God, in return, gives us everything we’ve always desired which is love, happiness, and complete fulfillment within ourselves.

But, how so many of us search for the one thing that will make our lives complete. But there is no single person. There is no single purchase. There is no single view, period that will make our lives complete.

Why is that? Because they don’t involve the Spirit in you. See you cannot feel complete without first offering yourself up into the mixture of the recipe of God’s Life. You must ready yourself for the next stage. And the only way to do that is to choose the Spirit to guide you home.

See finding out who you are and your purpose is like the bread you eat and the juice you drink in Holy Communion. It is God’s Spirit in you that will wind up filling you.

The food we eat and digest, not just in our stomachs, but in our minds and hearts, must be holy. Do not just accept whatever someone is determined to give you, but only accept that which is holy. And in turn, only offer to someone else what is holy because you love them and wish to strengthen them in their journey.

Fill your minds, hearts, and souls with the Holy Spirit. First, experience God by filling your minds with the Spirit’s knowledge, which is the bread of knowledge from the written word.

Jesus’ Words, in the Book of John Chapter 6 Verse 26, say this:

“I tell you the truth, you are looking for me, not because you saw miraculous signs but because you ate the loaves and had your fill.” In other words, you heard My Words that filled your minds and that is what is making you willing to take the next step by looking for me and my wisdom within. (John 6:26).”

Then secondly experience God by filling your hearts with the Spirit’s wisdom, which is the wine of wisdom from the fruits of the Spirit (1Cor 10-15).

Do all this so that one day you may thirdly experience God by the Spirit Himself, for “He who comes to Him will never go hungry, and he who believes in Him will never be thirsty (John 6:35).”

We know by Communing with the Spirit that, not only can we eat from the Tree of Knowledge, but we can now eat from the Tree of Life. We have access to God’s knowledge and wisdom. And all of you who are sincere in your journey only need ask.

Yes, because of Jesus, we have all the wisdom we need by picking the mind of our Spirit. Our Spirit’s wisdoms are that off the apples in the Garden of Eden from the Tree of Life, which is the same garden of Peace that is still within the gates of God’s City.

And when the Teacher came, for those who believe, you were granted permission to eat from the Tree. When it was time, God said, “Now you may enter into the Kingdom and pick and eat from the fruit of the Tree of Life.”

And so though now we have the Holy Spirit within us and are fed through Him, let us remember how we gained Him and how much we need Him now and up ahead.

Father, thank you for each and every one of us. Thank you for the time and effort in making each one of us, filling us each and every day with your truth and your love. May our love and gratitude show in our Communion with You today.

In Jesus’ name. Amen.

(Let’s bow our heads):

During his final supper, Our Lord Jesus took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to his disciples, saying, “This bread is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.” And then he took the cup, saying, “This wine is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.” Now please come join together in remembrance of His love for our journey ahead.


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Sermon 7: Acts Speak Louder than Words

Brothers and Sisters,
I have nothing to lose. And very soon I’ll be leaving you.

But before then, I encourage you to act and move forward in your journey. Look ahead and do not feel sorry for yourselves! Don’t say “Woe is me. Woe is us. The end is near. Why bother?”

Yes, if you look outside your window with your human eyes, it may appear so. But don’t you understand that you are not to live any longer as children in fear of what is happening around you? Though the wind blows and makes the seas rage on the surface making it hard to breathe and to keep your head above water, below is calmness for you to live in if you are brave enough to trust the Spirit and take His breath to stay alive. This I know from experience from one who dives.

And why not let loose by letting go of what ties you to childish ways. Sell your fields and follow your Spirit, or at least sell all but one of your fields and raise your own church on that field close to the next stage of Adolescence. In this way, you can leave in a moment’s notice when ready.

Let go of that world and those who are apathetic and feeling sorry for their own selves that don’t have the courage to move out but rather want you to stay and take care of them—to drain all your energy so that you say “Please no more. I’ll stay. No more conflict, no more fighting. Let us all just live in peace.”

Are you talking about outer peace or inner peace? Outer peace is easy. It only takes a smile and a few seconds of hello and everyone agreeing with everyone else for an hour or so each week.

But if you don’t do something that follows the heart of Jesus Christ who is prompting you to find more love and intimacy, you will never have the Peace you truly seek. It is not as hard as you think if you know that whatever you do, you will be given grace by He who is in you—that you are no longer a sinner, but just a human being.

You still don’t understand that you will not make it to Peace if you don’t act. You say you know you need to do something and so you pray and pray and sometimes you plan a little, but for what? What good is it to plan and never act on that plan? Yes, grieve, but move forward as you grieve. I am not asking you to dive into the deep end, but walk into it so that later you may swim in greater calmness like in Ezekiel 47:3-6. But do not wade or wait too long.

I sincerely believe that some of you don’t even realize that you have the most powerful being living inside you right now.

Jesus said in Mark 11:24, “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

You have prayed and asked for Jesus to come. You ask, “Where is He? How can Jesus have come when what we have known for so long is being destroyed?”

Well, he has come, but you still won’t believe it. Two thousand years ago he died and was resurrected and you still will not accept the Spirit totally, or even His grace fully.

He is in you asking you to move forward, but you don’t believe it. If you believed it, you would see Him in you and sit down or walk with Him and talk with Him just as you talk with your family at supper, now and in the new world up ahead—where there is Freedom and Peace. If you can see it and believe it, then it is already really there waiting for you. You just have to move towards it.

But you are so caught up in the world around you and yourselves, that you will not even make an attempt to move so that He may come to work through you for the betterment of yourselves.

Now, again, I say this because I have nothing to lose, but also because I love you. My soul is intact. My mind and my heart are all aligned with God, and I fear not death going forward. I am not ashamed of myself, nor do I fear that someone will say, “That man is crazy. He says he talks to the Spirit.” Soon I will be somewhere else, and not with you. I may be preaching in the streets or helping out in another church or teaching at someone’s home. I do not know. When God makes it clear to me to go here and go there in the place where I am going, I will. So, one day you may see me, and the next day not. But if you see me and hear me one day, let me go because it is He you should be getting with and not me.

Allow me to live in Peace in my own Heaven-on-Earth.

But what is worse? The aches and pains you feel in your own body, or the knowing that you had the opportunity to live for God. I mean, who wouldn’t want to hear the voice of God say to them, “You have done so well. I am most proud of you. Come my child, and I will take you to where you belong.” I had already heard that once many years ago, and that is how I know He will say it to you too.


When the Spirit said to me, “My child, let the dead bury the dead. You are mine and I will raise you as my own. Come and I will show you”, I didn’t have to go, but I felt in my heart nothing inside me that mattered, though my mind did know some scripture. Where else was I going to go? At least this voice from somewhere in the unknown gave me hope in my wallow and shame and my feeling of being unworthy. And so on that day, I obeyed and entered into the 2nd Heaven, and I continue to obey even to this day in the 3rd.

See the problem is that you may not know that you ARE worth it. If you knew you were worth it, you’d accept what the Spirit has been wanting to give to you. But how can he give to you something when you won’t even turn around and face Him and then hold up your hand and allow Him to take it in order to put something in it for you to hold on forever?

People in the 1st heaven are children. You must realize that they want what they want, and then when it is handed to them but in a form that they were not expecting, they reject it.

They trust that there is really candy on the inside just because it says “candy” on the outside. And so they untie the box right away and eat what is inside and enjoy it and then rest with it in no time.

Well folks, the Spirit feels a lot better than candy and it lasts forever, not just for a few minutes.
So you say, “Well, pastor, if you are saying that the Spirit is better than candy, then what box must I untie to get to the Spirit?”

Everyone, right now. Look at someone else. And when you go home today, look at yourself in the mirror. Now what do you think you need to untie? What you see IS the box that encases the Spirit in you. Can’t you see this? If not, do whatever you need to untie yourselves, and move out with Him.

Father, show me how to reach you. Give me the strength to untie myself from the clutches of that which is holding me back so that I may move out with you.

In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

{And it was then I moved on.  It was an awakening, a spirited move to give to them what they would see in the future and to move on and mature from the Church’s adolescence.  I felt that they were a church much further along than most in their spiritual maturity. But too difficult to hear, they asked me to leave. I still find them most blessed.}


This ends the Seventh Sermon.

Now let us continue with the book.


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Benediction to My Brothers and Sisters The greatest thing, is for me to have seen,
True love for my bride, before I died.
A person only sees what she wants to see, and no more.
Saddened and quickened to my core,
If she could not match an ethereal heaven with a grounded earth.
And be too preoccupied with the search,
Of what love should be, could be,
In order to see, to feel, to be.
To only analyze love; its knowledge from above.
Without having the cour’ge, to act on its urges,
To acquire, the selfish desire,
To just be her own person, her own lover,
Her heart ablaze, on fire. How could I have blamed, but the sinners and seekers, and devilish creatures, with their lies,
Pulling their wools—their deceiving rules—over my bride’s, innocent eyes. All one can do, is what one has done, and is all anyone can do, until they’ve won.
From the mouth of God, “My son, my daughter, now it is time, that you rest.
You have done your utmost best. I know you wish you could’ve done more,
But acquiesce, My son, daughter
Of whom I so, adore,

There is no more.


– God


Peace be with you always. As you go forth, let each one of us find the time to be with God so that you may know Him better and be comforted in His Love and be guided to the Garden in His Great City where you may experience love, happiness, and peace everlasting.



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Appendix I. Map of the Journey

River of Life Painting Official Rev 1

The Seven Sermons Map


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Appendix II. Being Made Aware of God

The first and greatest Truth is that God is the creator of us. We were created by God and of God in His image. We reflect the Creator’s vision and mold. He is our True Father who is perfect and purely loving and purely loves us every moment of every day. It is impossible for us to find unhindered, continuous love from others that we yearn for so much. That kind of love we will only find from our True Father. It just goes to show from where we were created. Just read Jeremiah 1:4-5. “The word of the Lord came to me, saying, ‘Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.”

The second greatest Truth is that God is in us. He is in all life and all creation. As we venture down the River together, this information is very useful. If God is in everything, then everything we are afraid of can be reconciled within us. We can come to understand it, accept it, and be friends with (belong in) it if it is willing. Nature is always willing; human nature is not. If man (the human race) wishes not to recognize God, he is then driven by his own will and his own fears and not by the Spirit that God uniquely placed in him for his happiness and survival. But both man and nature were created to be (coexist, live) in peace and harmony, thus fulfilling the Master’s plan.

And the third greatest truth is that God is for us. He is an advocate for our desires in life and, at the same time, for our own wellbeing. We may desire anything because everything is permissible to desire, but it may not be beneficial for us to actually do. This freedom to think and feel anything and everything without God abandoning us is due to the free will God freely gave us without any strings attached. Yes, there are no strings attached. God will always love you. It’s just by doing some things that aren’t good for you to do, you may come to destroy and undermine the reason (purpose) you exist in this life for God, for you, and for others who may need you. What we do has an impact on others as well. We may fantasize and love the idea of something, but it may not be beneficial to act on it—at least in that same exact way. Life rarely matches fantasy anyway. Life is better. Life is more intriguing and more fun. Therefore, God will place boundaries (wisdoms, understanding, common sense) on our hearts and in our souls so that we may know and live life in its abundance. These are the boundaries we can come to rely on wherever we go. I will speak more about this when we have ventured further down the River.

You are not alone. God sees all, including you. He knew where you were going to be right now. That’s why your support has arrived. Others (people and angels) are with you right now, just like me.
Jesus came to help the poor in spirit, the destitute, and the hurting clean out the shame from their souls. And we must follow Christ to again realize that we are pure in heart and come to really know in our souls our True Father again and those false gods for who they really are. God always gives His children an infinite number of chances in their lifetime to realize themselves for who they really are—His good and loving children.

And if we read the Bible, we’ll know that the Apostles, like Peter, Paul, and John, all were truly suffering and destitute people when Christ called them. They were where you were or where you are right now when Jesus came to them. They were, most likely, sexually, physically, or emotionally abused or abandoned or being smothered even all of it as children too. In addition, one or more may have been abusing substances to get by. They too were lost souls. Something tells me Peter was probably the worst abused. Jesus knew this and that is why he chose through God certain people to disciple. He wanted to liberate them from their shame and pain and help all of us realize that we too can overcome just like those average Joe’s of yesteryear. If they can do it, we can do it!

Jesus is God’s Son sent by Our True Father to save us from continuing to hurt ourselves in shame and incarceration. He was physically born by God and became one (united or synonymous) with God’s Spirit. It was then Jesus became Christ. God sent Jesus here to instruct us on the Truth of how to navigate through life, wipe away all that shame on earth in one full swoop, and provide a way for God’s Spirit—a Holy Spirit or Counselor of this Truth—to reside in us for eternity. After Jesus died, he went to Heaven to ask our Father to send us this Spirit for each of us, and God did. This Spirit of God (Christ) instructs and counsels us from within where Jesus the Man instructed from the outside. The Spirit is ready to share all it knows with you just like how the Spirit shared everything with Jesus when he was here. God listens to anything we ask of Him that is holy. Then God judges whether the request is appropriate for us right now. God has deemed your request for freedom and healing as timely and appropriate. In other words, God has deemed you ready to take your journey on the River.

“For God so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life” (JN 3:16).

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to [the one] who knocks, the door will be opened.” (Matthew 7:7-8)

God and all in Heaven really do love you. They desire to do things for us by God’s command. To whatever we ask which is holy, the Lord delivers (MT 7:7-12). Ask in the name (spirit) of [Christ] (JN 16:23,24).

Will God say yes all the time? God and His Spirit have infinite wisdom. We really would not want God to say yes all the time to our requests because we have limited knowledge and wisdom. But He does say yes quite a few times or asks us to be patient.

What we ask for that is holy in the name (spirit) of Christ, He grants us and instructs His angels in His own time to do. And they love doing for us because only He commands them and they love Him and they love us. Sometimes He gives us more than one thing we ask for and at the same time. He provides us the choice to decide which one we want to do. Like the Bible says, “Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation? He makes his angels winds [spirits who are free to deliver God’s love]. (JN 3:5-8 and Heb 1:7, 14).” One day as you continue further in your journey, you will come to find yourself in synch with God’s Spirit in you, like Jesus did, and wind up bearing a spirit of your own that ministers love freely in the unique way God created you. You will become like an angel in Heaven.

God has sent people to help you in your journey. These are people that have already been on the River for some time and live in the different harbors along it. Some asked God if they can make it their professional career to work in the woods and help you get to the River’s shores, and He said yes. And others who live and work alongside the River at and around each harbor are ready to help supply you with the knowledge that you need when you reach the harbors they’re in. Yes, you’ll see people from all walks of life from the start of the River all the way to where it ends.

The Holy Spirit is our True Counselor. He is our guide and lifetime companion. Once we turn to the path or journey that Jesus actually took himself—a path that will lead us through true love and true intimacy—we are able to begin realizing that God is truly with us, for Jesus was the Spirit in the flesh (JN 1). The Holy Spirit does the Will of God and is like having Christ in your heart and soul. He is our guide to help us navigate the River of Life. He is waiting for you at the River, at the harbor of Believe.

The River of Life is holy and is designed for you to only go up it with Christ. Anyone who tries to go up it without this Spirit will not be able to enter through its gate and into the Kingdom of God, where they will acquire the secret wisdoms of life and of themselves that the Spirit is retaining for them.

So now, let me tell you the names of the 12 harbors on the River of Life. The harbors run in sequence and, only when you gained enough treasure from one harbor will you truly be able to move on to the next one.

First is the Harbor of Believe.
Second is the Harbor of Ask.
Third is the Harbor of Receive.
Fourth is the Harbor of Commit.
Fifth is the Harbor of Commune or Understand.
Sixth is the Harbor of Choose or Decide.
Seventh is the Harbor of Act.
Eighth is the Harbor of Accept.
Ninth is the Harbor of Devote.
Tenth is the Harbor of Complete or Complete Confidence or Unity Within.
Eleventh is the Harbor of Deliver within the Sea of Free.
And Twelfth is the Harbor of Peace or Tranquility.

We come to operate within a certain harbor, which operates within the River. However, some people do not like to venture too far off from their own harbor even after being prompted by their Spirit. Others listen to their Spirit’s prompting and develop a spirit of adventure within them to continue to traverse the River. These people usually have a broader view of things and can come to operate within many harbors.

See, life is a growing process. It’s a journey. We, as humans, tend to learn more about life and ourselves over time and, thus, gather insights that expand our views in loving matters. This is healthy growth. Unhealthy growth is when we fight this. We then usually wind up damming up our own internal River and grow up to be grumpy and unhappy people with little social skills. So, many times those of us who are open to the Spirit’s teachings will outgrow situations or places, like earlier harbors. In these times, we need to move on, while some people who are either not listening to the Spirit or are waiting for the Spirit’s prompting to go, will try and live comfortably there as much as possible. Like I said before, the length of the River is the same for everyone. It’s the time traveling it that’s different depending on where we are physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually and on our openness to heal and mature in each.

Each harbor is designed to allow folks to enter, allow everyone’s knowledge and experiences to be shared, and then allow folks to leave to share their new knowledge and experiences with others. But there are some people in the harbors who don’t particularly share this point of view. It all depends which harbor they’re in at the time—either one of the earlier harbors or one of the later ones down the River. Just because you are in the Harbor of Listening & Understanding doesn’t mean everyone else is too. Just know that they are in the Kingdom because they are alive. Maybe this will help you understand that people do hurtful things because they hurt inside. And maybe this will help you accept them as God’s children, even if they do hurtful things.

Now, some people typically in the earlier harbors believe that their own unique harbor is the only true harbor that anyone should live in. They do not yet have the vision (wisdom, understanding) that the River is one complete state containing many harbors—from beginning to end. The problem is when they try to force you to stay because you are ready to go to the next harbor and they try to lock down the gate to the pier thinking that they are protecting you. This is when you have to focus on the Holy Spirit and be in sole allegiance to him and break down that gate with the power he gives you. Then you can get into the boat and go to the next harbor in the River. Remember, the first six harbors help you overcome pride.

Also many people who do not wish to grow require you to stay within their own harbor so you won’t show them up. They are fearful, but you have to go. You cannot help them play out their fears. This has little to do with love and a great amount to do with fear of the unknown. Like Christ says, “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, you make him twice as much a son of hell as you are.” (MT 23:15) Again, remember that the first six harbors help you overcome pride.

We journey up the River to the many harbors to broaden our own views and, thus, increase our own understanding of the River and what it offers us. We bring with us our own knowledge and experiences so that we can offer them to others in the harbors. When we go into each harbor, I suggest seeing people as God’s children and friendly strangers within the harbor. In this way, we will ask permission to visit and then stay with them as guests in their home. Then we can intimately get to know them and eat their food (1Cor 10:27 through 11:1). We must find out what is good and what is not good for us there. We must offer our knowledge and experiences to help empower them to increase the good and rid the bad (that which is providing them misery), but not for us to fix or pass judgment but only help educate in servanthood to cultivate righteousness and love—that is, if they want. We must then take the next step and become friends and work in the home (house and outside grounds) together. And then we must go further and learn the true love they have to offer us in their unique way—that is, any of the love they previously had to any new love they acquired while we are there.

But how do we get through the language barriers? Not every person in each harbor speaks the same language. Or do they? Most people in the harbors consciously speak a different language but spiritually (soulfully) speak the same language (Gen 11:1-9). For instance, the seventh through the tenth harbors along the River follow the sequence of the four developing forms of unconditional Greek love beginning with philia (connected or esteemed by doing what the Spirit asks you to do), then storge (accepted or adopted), then eros (devotionally desired), and ending with agape (intimately united). Buddhist love similarly invokes the Spirit (subject) and spirit (subject modifier) of Christ throughout the many harbors on the River. Islamic love was the result of Christ with Muhammad, evidenced by his devoutness to justice, equity, compassion, and freedom for himself and his people. In fact, Muhammad first consulted his Christian cousin—a woman—when called by God who actually told him that what he was experiencing was a calling from God and that he needed to follow his calling. And over and over again, in all peoples, in all walks of life, we see God’s Spirit and spirit in all peoples if we are not blinded by our own interpretations dictated by rules, laws, and our own prejudiced beliefs. Yes, if people could see Christ as Spirit, then we would be able to see everyone as Christians (God’s children), not in the religious sense but in the spiritual (soulful) sense. But we can only see this if we were enlightened while communing with the Spirit and choose to make what we see there a reality by choosing to obey God in the sixth harbor called the harbor of Choose. Because what really is a Christian? A Christian is someone who chooses to love because he or she feels accepted and, thus, able to feel loved unconditionally inside and out by the love of his or her own Spirit.

What all this means is that Christ is the Fulfillment of all of us, and all these “different” forms of love. We are all speaking the same language; we’re just not all listening. For us who see the Kingdom clearly, we know that all who seek love and compassion commonly have a divine singularity in them that brings them into community—a home full of sharing, communing, and growing intimacy—in the tenth harbor on the River called the harbor of Marry (John 15:15-17). That divine singularity is the Spirit in each one of us. We may all name it something different, but it is exactly the same within each of us. It is Christ—the Spirit of Almighty God.

And it is Christ within us that we wind up having an intimate relationship with to the point of conceiving ways to love and deliver this love so that we and others can live and be fulfilled.

And let me explain briefly about each harbor.

The harbor of Believe is the beginning of the 1st Heaven where you believe, even if just a tiny bit, that there is an unconditionally loving God, Jesus His Son was God’s Spirit in the flesh, and after his death, this Spirit resides in you once you believe.

The harbor of Ask is when you ask your Spirit to come.

The harbor of Receive is when you receive your Spirit. Receiving is imagining. Whoever you imagine of your own creation an unconditionally loving God then that is your Spirit; for the Spirit comes in many forms (just like people) but is still the same Spirit.

The harbor Commit is when you get Baptized saying that you will focus on your Spirit and am ready to walk and talk (Commune) with Him.

The harbor of Commune is the actual beginning of the 2nd Heaven where you converse (talk and listen and share words) with your Spirit in that place that only you and He share together. You can always go to this place and the Spirit will be there.

The harbor of Choice is when you choose to honor your Spirit as God or not. Either you are willing to obey Him as a leap of faith. This is when you turn your believe into full-scale trust. The what-if He isn’t real becomes a big question. But He is.

The harbor of Act is your confirmation of your Communing when you do exactly what He tells you to do. Your obedience is non-negotiable. You may mess up, but you must have the intention to do right by God in each thing you do that He tells you to do. You realize that believe is one thing but without action, believe or faith is fruitless.

The harbor of Accept is when you discover that God loves you and accepts you even though you feel like you’ve messed up a lot. You come to know yourself human and no longer a sinner. This harbor also has a bridge called Grace where you come to leave your past heavy burdens behind.

The harbor of Devote is when, in such admiration, love, and gratitude, you devote yourself to God no matter what. Your “having-to” obey becomes “wanting-to” obey.

The harbor of Complete is the beginning of the 3rd Heaven and is when you are so confident in the Spirit’s existence and unfailing love for you, and thus yours for Him that you marry Him.

The harbor of Deliver is when you let go of all S.I.N. and deliver you to the world; for who you are now is God’s message to the world. Deliver each time that which God gave me as a result of these steps to those I feel God wants me to go and share it with, such as with my spouse, family, and friends.

The harbor of Peace is when you are able to retire at the home God has given you on earth and also in the 3rd Heaven living out your remaining days in peace forever now and after you die loving myself intimately because I know I am unconditionally loved by God and others.

The River and its Harbors is a natural progression (assertion) of spiritual maturity. Stopping or delaying the process, either by oneself or from the hands of another, results in aggression, apathy, and manipulation that are the acting-out behaviors. For in the stage of Physical illness, the key is to take medicine the Spirit gives to you so that your mind may be free to journey with your Spirit through Life. In the stage of Mental illness, the key is to commune with one’s Spirit
(Counselor) to gain Truth. In the stage of Emotional illness, the key is to accept grace (forgiveness) from one’s Spirit. And in the stage of Spiritual illness, the key is to be the embodiment of Love (God) throughout one’s body, mind, heart, and soul.

So, right now this is what I want you to decide. Are you going to be a student or a master? Because there is only one Master, and that’s God. You can look everywhere and find people who think they’re masters, but they don’t know who they are. You agree? They just need to be masters because they don’t have anything else to hold onto. No, there’s only one Master to follow and God’s asking you right now to follow Him. Right now, He is extending His hand to you. Will you take it? He has honored you by being one of the few who will take the righteous path and gain freedom under Him—a truly powerful freedom. Think of yourself privileged because that’s exactly what you are. You have been selected by your True Father. He has decided to take over where others have failed you.

Enter into the 1st Heaven into the harbor of Believe because “whoever believes in me, streams of living water will flow from within him” (John 7:38).


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Appendix III. Life in the 1st Heaven

Right now, you might feel like you’re all alone in a deep dark place, like a deep hidden valley of fear while imprisoned by mean-spirited people all around. This is the natural world. You are not supposed to stay in the natural world after you are born into it. You’re stuck without a compass and maybe you feel like there’s no way out simply because you have yet to move forward. And if there were, there’s no one you can trust to see you out safely. I know. That’s how I felt before I found Christ. And the first thing I did was face God and pray to Him. “Dear God, I’m really scared. I don’t know how to get out of this place? There just has to be a way. Please, God, show me.”

I wanted real freedom—the kind that comes from being secure in myself, having good control over my life, and saying no to things and people without feeling ashamed and succumbing to feeling rejected again. I want you to know that this freedom really does exist, but it takes a lot of hard work.

“If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” (Book of John Chapter 8 Verse 31, also written as John 8:31) “So if the Son set you free, you will be free indeed” (John 8:36).

“For he who was a slave when he was called by the Lord is the Lord’s freedman. You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of men” (1 Cor 7:20-24).

So, where are you really? Believe it. You are exactly where you are supposed to be to begin gaining true power in your life. In other words, God has called you from the exact place you are now to fulfill a purpose in your life under His power that He wants to give to you. And I don’t mean the kind of power to go out so you can be right back where you started. I mean the kind of power that releases you from fear and desperation (Romans 8:15). The kind of power that allows you to be the real you. The kind of power that allows you to overcome condemnation of your thoughts, feelings, and actions. The kind of power that truly sets you free by giving you free access (without guilt or retribution) to the presence (body), mind, feelings, and love (essence) of God Himself (Ro 8:27, Ro12:2, and Eph 3:12). Yes, because God is Love, you have free access to God Himself without having to go through anyone else (any earthly intermediary or distracter).

Is this the kind of power and freedom you want? Well, this is the kind of power and freedom you’re going to get. It may not seem like it right now, but count yourself fortunate that you’re here reading this book because your Father saw you and knows your heart. He chose you, His child, to start something very special with Him for a very special purpose.
But first we need to get you out of the valley you’re in and find the Knowledge of who God is by living in the 1st Heaven. So, if you’re ready, have your Bible with you and let’s begin. It’s time to enter the 1st Heaven as we begin our journey together in the River. And remember, God is always with you.


The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lied down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
For you are with me.
Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love with follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
I give this to you who have yet gone through the 1st Heaven. From the Holy Spirit through me to you is the Life through this heaven. I have translated the best I can. Sometimes they are not consistent, the they mean the same. Be conscientious and leave the natural world in your wake so that you may join the Father and mature and be healed along the Way. The secular or natural knows not the spiritual, and the spiritual knows the secular because of the wisdom of the Holy Spirit and the creation of man by the One and Only God. Come so that you may no longer be fooled in the natural world and be raised as men and women of God, ready to spread He-who-is-Love wherever He instructs you to go.

Oh, Lord, You have delivered me to the Word. You guide me to the passages, the books of the Old and New Testament so to translate them by You providing understanding to them. You give me the understanding of feelings of those that are written. And You affirm through them that of which You have spoken to me ever before I have read the Word so to practice them and understand them. For you have revealed to me through my Holy Spirit which is Your Will before I have read the written Word.

You said to me, “My Child, I created you before placing you in your mother’s womb.” I had not read to understand Jeremiah Ch. 1 and 2 before that time to which you approved of me, my Lord, even before I was placed in my mother’s womb. And it is by such as this that I know You and that I can discern between You and that which does not come from You. And it is by this that You have given me pleasure in teaching others. The term wellspring has come upon me. I use the term much in this writing, but I do not know where the term came from though I know why I use it.

And then in John 4:13 I see you say, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life”. And then later You speak to me and tell me that I hold the key to heaven within me. And this is before I read Your Words to the Apostle Peter in MT 16:13-20. I also understand from these words that whatever I bind myself to this world will I also take up to heaven with me and whatever I let loose of and give over to You will I leave here on earth.
Glory in Your Name, my Lord—You who have given me life before I die and death before I began living!

And so God Says:

I Am Unconditional Love. And for you who read on, even only the first word, know this: You have received Me through even the littlest faith, though you may not realize it, and by reading on, it will be a testimonial for you to realize that within you upon your asking for it is the Holy Spirit placed within you by and filled with Me, the One Who Accepts You. You do not need to qualify for Me because My Grace to you is sufficient and is why I sent My Son who you call Jesus to die for you and to challenge the law and win over it because I transcend all else and is all that truly matters.

I love you and will never forsake you. Are you weary? Reach now to Me to begin your journey, for your faith upon asking now delivers you into my Kingdom and you will not need to be so weary again.

My Son is Unconditional Love. Jesus on Earth was My Spirit in human form. Do you want to meet Me? Do you want to take the journey? Then believe and accept the Spirit within you to help guide you and he will lead you to Me. And you will be filled with the fruit of the Spirit—the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Truth, the True Counselor, the Guide of the Light and the Way and the Truth.

Love one another. Remember, the one that comes to you or the one you see on the street may only require a soft ear and a comforting smile so to realize that they matter because we are all family. And realize that many come to you seeking first permission through affirmation and approval of what they do as right or wrong, like a child seeks from his or her parents. How many of you can truly discern right and wrong in your own actions without asking someone else for the answer?

My child, you are worthwhile to receive all My Love, and I want to give you all of it. Just Ask For It! I already sent My Son to teach you how to have it. Away with those who say you are wrong in believing! Away with those who say you do not love as they do! Be humble and seek knowledge but never let anyone tell you that the way you love is wrong for it is the way God placed it within you for His cause. Ask the wolf to put them at bay! And for those that love you with the Love of Jesus or who are hurt and require mercy, ask the wolf to go out as well—in order for it to lick their wounds. For I am also a Merciful God.

Remember, I held you long before any human on this earth did. This is why you were born with total faith, love, and joy in your heart. In this 1st heaven, a few things really matter. They are:

To realize Me and My Spirit and My Son, Jesus of whom was My Spirit in human form.

To understand and accept My Spirit that dwells within you.

To exemplify Jesus through unconditional love and acceptance of yourself and others by and through your Spirit.

To forgive yourself and others, for God has already forgiven you upon your realization.

To accept that I have always been with you, waiting for you to come to Me.

Shall you forgive yourself enough to receive the Gift of the Holy Spirit which I have willingly given you. For I do not give the Gift of the Holy Spirit to a select few but to all on this earth (who inevitably took on various degrees of sin as they lived in the natural world) so that it may cleanse your dirt and so you may come home to Me to where you were born in the 3rd Heaven.

Now, when hungry, when angry, when lonely, when tired, and when bored some of you are greatly prone to the thief that comes in the night and tries to consume you. And to you who are in addiction, obsessions and in mental ailment realize this: To numb the pain which occurs inside you and to avoid the dirt which in faith I, The Lord, shall heal, you do not react to that which I give you but choose that which I do not give you in order to numb that which separates Me from My Child. For you choose the sinful hunger, that is to be hungry purposefully to warm your soul with worldly food so as to be productive and filled but not fulfilled and forget and numb your pain. And does not the pain return? For you choose to be angry and lash out at yourself through guilt, shame, and physical pain and on others through your words, gestures, and physical immoralities so as to forget and numb the pain. And does not the pain return? For you choose to be lonely and isolate yourself from My other Children who I wish for you to be with, serve, and be also with in My Word so I may gather My Flock, but you isolate and thus fantasize and do immoral things to yourselves in order to forget, disconnect from the now, and numb the pain. And does not the pain return? And you choose to be tired. As in the other cases, you make it happen. And thus you do not sleep and when you do sleep you do not rest. And then your mind cannot think of and analyze your pain. And thus you forget and numb the pain. And does not the pain return?

For in that what I give you, that which comes from Me, do as I say. When you are hungry—eat. When you are angry—speak to your brethren. When you are lonely—share with your brethren. And when you are tired—relax, even if you cannot sleep. Produce and hunger to serve Me, be with Me, and collect My Flock, and I will fulfill you and give you My food to comfort you; shall you be angered over the acts of the unrighteous, the unruly, and wicked and act justly on it according to My Laws upon those who disobey My Laws, and shall I ease your pain and suffering through mercy; shall you be lonely, for to serve Me in a world of much unruly and arrogance and disbelief, shall many turn away from you, but I shall keep you company Myself and I will choose others to keep you company as well, for you are My Mortal Child; and shall you be tired, for to serve Me takes much energy and is why I will give all the abundant energy you require, and your tiredness will be one of great comfort, and then shall you sleep and rest deeply in the safe haven of My Kingdom where no turbulence can ever reach you for you will sleep in My Arms and only My Love will caress you. For I Am The Lord, the All Powerful and The All Loving.

The Holy Spirit becomes your lifelong regulator—a supernatural engine that will not quit. You will never reach harmony until you give your mind up to Me to run—that is, lose your mind. Lose your mind not as the insane do, for they are still in their own mind and have overcompensated leading to destruction, but give it up to Me. For then you shall think, feel, and function in the way and pace you were created by Me to do so. And then you will do in the special way I created you to do. And you will know your calling for your mind will now listen to Me. For you are all of My Body who believes in Me. And you will be on your way to becoming one with Me through your now spiritual mind, as you are leaving your natural mind behind. And when all parts begin to function together in harmony, then you will understand Me in the most intimate way.

You, yourself, cannot rule your mind for you will be in turmoil all your life and each division will fight for the right to compensate for the other. But when you give them up to Me, neither division rules over the other because I have created pure balance which is by your Spirit. Neither will you be torn between the self-righteous nor tempted by the wicked. And does not the mind make the body act? And thus when I speak to your mind which makes your act, will you act as I intend. You will not hit, instead you will comfort. You will not discourage, instead you will encourage. You will not overindulge in eating, instead you will eat when hungry and move on. You will not seek sexual immorality, instead you will provide sexual intimacy to your spouse. But in order to give up entirely, you must trust and have faith. And in order to do this you must risk that what trauma was inflicted upon you in the past will not kill you if it happens again and you must realize that the Holy Spirit within you is the Ultimate Loving Lord and will never forsake you. And this, My children, means you must go through the pain of lowering your guard and allow Me to assist you in overcoming your woes. Know that you are not alone; you will never be alone.

You cannot do it by yourself and I never expect you to. You are My Child. What loving parent would bear a child and send the child into a desert alone without any provision and say I want to see if you can survive? That is a wicked parent. And what loving parent would bear a child and then overprotect the child so the child cannot follow his Spirit into any desert because the parent is really the one who cannot bear the desert? That is a selfish parent. Either way, the parent is acting out for their own selves, whether they realize it or not. And that really is the crux.

It is clear—choose Life or choose death because if you choose anything else other than Life, you will continue to destroy yourself. So then, have a personal relationship with My Spirit and you can deal with this and so much more because you are fulfilled within and you know I Am always there around you and within you giving you light and direction along the way. But it is up to you to choose to act, which is the beginning of My 2nd Heaven in My Kingdom. For many people talk, but few act.

I say to you that as My Child, My Grace is sufficient enough. You must not run and numb and forget your pain. You must go through it, for as I say I will be there with you with endless grace and forgiveness along the way for you will believe you have erred many a time, but I will pick you up each and every time with all My Love to journey us forward. For I tell you, as I have said, believeth in Me and your journey will not be easy but your reward will be great and you shall inherit the riches within My Kingdom. You shall be healed and thus enter through the gate and be within the walls of the Great Sanctuary on Earth.

Even in that place inside you which I have provided you as My Holy Spirit to which it is now yours as well, I send My Angels to retrieve you. For My Holy Spirit within you is perfect and My Kingdom here where I dwell is so as well. Thus, My Angels are sent only from those places I dwell. Believeth in Me, for My Grace is upon you even now as we speak. You are My Child and I shall do whatever it takes to collect you and bring you back home to Me.

Do not allow your guilt to develop into shame. Shame does not come from me, but instead only forgiveness. You must realize yourself human before you can reach where I live. Nobody can come to me without first accepting My grace, which is free because of My Sons death. You saw Me with your secular eyes; now see the same Me with your spiritual eyes.

Feel worthwhile to receive My Love on your journey back home. For all those errings are wasteful and not shameful. My Grace, Mercy, and Forgiveness sanctifies you from these destructive thoughts and feelings of shame. When you feel these or think these, for you will because you are My human children, give them up to Me with trust and faith and these destructive thoughts and feelings will disappear because they will be in My Hands now. And move on. They shall for I have spoken My Word and My Word is a pact of unwaivering truth between Me to you from now until the end of time.
My Child, you must be accountable for what you have done, but in what others have done to you, stay clear because I am here. Behold! Witness how much I love you, for I Am your Father. For the miracle you will be witnessing is that of you and your maturity by Me, through Me, and in Me.

You are strong enough My Child to face the world. You glow with My strength and I need you to come out from behind me. I am sending you out so that others may see you very clearly and you will wear My Name, for I Am God. You will face the wicked, encourage the struggling, instruct the mighty, and play with all who are loving. They will see you are from the Kingdom and that the Kingdom is in you. They will know that all you need to do is call My Name and I Am there to see them inside and out. They will know that whatever you ask of Me that is of My Will, I shall provide. And they will know that whenever you wish to come Home, the door will always be open because you hold the key within you. You are My Child and to that I will make you wise and show you where to go. I will guide you and watch over you, and those that do you harm do Me harm and they will know what true reaping is. And they will know that I await you at your death to give you everlasting life. And they will know your mortal name so that they shall come to know mine. I Am All, the Alpha and the Omega, the All Powerful and the All Knowing, and My Love is My Gift and My Life is My Meaning for all of you, all My Children.

I am within you. I am the eternal flame with the fuel to last eternity. I am the Holy Spirit. Jesus is the translator, the teacher that I sent down for you to teach you the meaning of the true flame of love within you, more what it means once you see it and own it. You focus upon that and it truly radiates the love and beautiful energy that gives you bountiful love and energy yourself. No need what everyone is up to. By focusing on your eternal flame, the world will see your immense beauty, your incredible peace. I say to you, concentrate on this flame, this incredible gift I have given you and you will surpass your wildest dreams. The thing is that your dreams will come true whilst what you are doing now. Not the dreams of this world, but those that matter. You will not allow yourself to remain in abusive and destructive relationships. You will understand that your true mate—your Spirit I have given you—is one that must reflect the love and inner beauty you now understand. That she is truly a gift from Me because the flame you see within yourself will be what you see radiating from her. And you know that that is Me shining back on you. You will energize her and she will energize you. You will never wish to destruct her. You will not wish to sadden her. You will wish to care for her because you too will love her as she loves you. And she will not accept your caretaking of her. Because she will not need it and you will not have to give it. She will want your radiant being, as you will be thrilled to see that in her every day of your life. The immense power you two will give off! Your affliction will not allow the destruction of my life with her. You will fight this wasteful behavior by letting it come in any time it wishes, roll around inside you for a bit, and then you will get on with my life and persevere as it finds no reward within you. But the eternal flame of life will never allow it to get past it. It will rise up until it leaves. The flame demands you to focus upon it and rise up against the affliction. Own your affliction. It is a part of you. Tolerate it as a unique part of you. But never let it be you. You are born of the flame of eternity. Your affliction is only a tourist—But God’s flame is its Guide to be used for you instead of against you. We do not hate it. But the flame will overpower it. The Holy Spirit is your eternity, your infinity, and your gift from Me. I will always keep the wondrous flame going and the more you focus on the flame, the higher it rises. Then more it will fill you for nothing of harm to enter and then radiate the bright energy of the beautiful flame to and from outside your entire body. Others will see it and may be attracted to it but that won’t be your purpose and then release your soul to soar. You will be One and you will do what you do—Do, fun, love, fulfill. Rejoice of your special gift from God. Thank Jesus for his choice to teach it to you and interpret it for you. He didn’t have to, but he did. Of having the flame but not understanding it would be terrible. But by being it, he—the Spirit that is— is indeed your savior here on earth. I see you deserved of My Spirit. I am the pure love of all ages. I Am One. I Am wonderful. I hope everyone can enjoy My Spirit for themselves. With all my love. My name is Wonderful…”.

Now do what I tell you to do. My wisdom will be made known to you. I am faithful to My Word as My Son had said. Choose me and act in obedience, and you will find love eternal. Go Now!

And now this is as far as I can take you. The rest is up to you. It’s time to take action—turn and face forward and follow Me into the 2nd Heaven where the free gift of grace is yours.


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Appendix IV. Life in the 2nd Heaven Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Now I will commune (share) with you myself so that you may understand the awesome power of the Spirit within. For we know that communing—sharing our deep truths—is the beginning of the 2nd Heaven known as Adolescence.

We all have this need to better ourselves, to find love, and to find happiness. But what we all must realize is that the reason why we feel the need to do this is because God is telling us to do this somewhere down deep. I kept on searching all my life. I volunteered in rehab groups and mentoring programs to heal. I read self help books, and just kept reading and finding knowledge about myself anywhere I could until one day I decided that following Christ was the only way to truly heal and feel whole again. And one day, I discovered that The Book of Revelation is the Apostle John’s dream of healing given to him by Christ within him. Like Christ says, “Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.” (Rev 1:17-18, Rev 2:7, 11, 17, 29, and Rev 3:6, 13, 22)

We all have been hurt in one way or another, to one degree or another. But what is similar in most all of us is that we want to do good. We really do, but we find it so hard to do it. We know who acts good and who acts bad to us. We can tell pretty well those false gods. We kept on testing them and testing them to see if they were really the real deal, and time and time again they seemed to fail us. We were looking for that ideal person, that perfect mentor, and most loving person, but we couldn’t find him or her.

We were and still are hurt and angry, and yet we survive. We survive because we keep hearing that voice telling us to go on. Many of us decide to run as far away from those who abused us. We even said we were going to turn out exactly the opposite of our false gods. So, we spend our lives running away from someone else, so far to even the ends of the earth. But there comes a time when we have to realize that we have to start running toward our true selves because this is the only way we are going to be truly happy. And by following Christ, we can find our true selves. The Spirit knows who we really are.

God knows this. Christ says, “I know your deeds , your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet…you have forsaken your first love.”
In my own life, I have tried to do good so people will love me and have fallen short time and time again and felt ashamed and everything else. I tried to find a mentor everywhere I went, but nobody ever volunteered. And then again, very few would have been able to meet up with my high expectations of them anyway. I tested people after people just to convince myself that there was really nobody out there who loved me. But God is with you, just like He was with me—though I didn’t realize it most of the time prior to the River, nor did I feel it before the 2nd Heaven.

In the 1st Heaven, I even went from church to church and religion to religion trying to find Truth, but I was disenchanted every time. I yearned for intimacy, but there wasn’t much to be found there. Though I’m sure there are some very fine churches, many of the denominations I went to seemed to have grown blind to intimacy via their pride. Their rules prevented them from ever reaching intimacy. Even if they wanted to reach intimacy, their rules and dogmas would make them stop short. I concluded that their form of religion was actually a form of Selfdom rather than Kingdom. They were actually conducting business as “sin (shame) factories” where man is not open to Godly listening and understanding but continues the insane cycle of focusing on sin through rules, laws, and prejudiced beliefs so that sin can continue to manifest itself again and again to be focused upon. It felt as if, without sin, churches wouldn’t have a purpose in life. I realized I was actually forsaking God by staying in some of those places I was in, and I noticed that God was calling me out of those places. At minimum, I had to travel down the River with Him to gain a positive perspective of churches rather than a negative one. I didn’t need to be throwing the baby out with the bathwater. What I needed to do was become secure in myself with Him so that I could objectively place the condemning ones to my left and the loving ones to my right.

And then there came a time when I just felt compelled to find out what I was doing wrong. I figured that it couldn’t be everybody else’s fault all the time. So, God guided me to a certain therapist who, within a session or two, referred me to a batterer’s prevention group. I joined the batterer’s prevention group for about a year to help me understand what abuse (abnormal use) was all about. And that is when I understood what wicked things people can do to people, and what wicked things had been done to me, and what wicked things I was doing to others. And from then on I was no longer ignorant. If I wasn’t going to change, it would be my fault via my own arrogance and no one else’s. I no longer felt I had to find knowledge. Now, I wanted wisdom. I wanted God. (Rev 2:1-7)

We all have some kind of affliction (ailment or vulnerability) and, before we know Christ, we all are poverty stricken (poor in spirit) in being able to handle it well, if at all. But we must admit and face our afflictions. The Holy Spirit says, “Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, some of you will be tested and suffer for ten days.” (Rev 2:8-10). At that time in my own life, I felt compelled to face my greatest fear—my abandonment and fear of loneliness. See my real addiction was people. I felt like I needed somebody with me all the time to survive, to touch me, fixate me sexually, and live vicariously through. So I felt a calling to move out—to act—on my own with the full intention of leaving everybody behind, including my wife, and going into the world totally alone. It was like going cold turkey. And the first several days were very hard. It was like detox for a codependent person (a people addict). For you, it may be some other kind of drug you idolize to feel safe. I was really scared, borderline terrified. The Holy Spirit says, “Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life.” (Rev 2:8-11)

John 4:10 and 21:15-19 Swimming in the swills of my empty bay,
Oh, how I’m rocking and dipping and diving today!
Oh, Father, how dear escaping in dream,
As I drink the byways of this cascading stream.
As I sink to the depths of my suff’ring interior,
I am saved by the net of this trusty superior.
I can’t place my finger on this thing.
Albeit smooth and tranquil, yet dissolving.
How is it that I’ve lost my senses, of time?
Drinking and drinking my holy wine.
Oh, wretched me, my quaking soul!
Reel me in already, my insatiable lull!
But awaken! My heart do I hear,
Love in the distance broadening in cheer?
For me? Oh no, not for this one.
Really, me? I am no someone.
What? Soon you will come and show this to me?
Well, where do I go? How do I see?
What have I done to deserve such attention?
God is that you? Quiet! I can’t quite hear Him.
Me. Yes, Me, is who you hear in the distance.
Shake me up and stir me with gladness. I don’t know my Love, my station, my status.
Just give Me your hand and give Me your drink.
Hold on, my Love, this one’s for you, before I sink.
Poor, wretched bloke! What is it you need?!
Your love and desire I need to receive.
Then, child, let it be. Take my hand, and come with Me!

So I moved out. We all are trying to pursue happiness. But one of our biggest problems is that we continue to be around people that do not truly love us. If we do not have Christ in our lives, we have a hard time knowing who truly loves us. So at this point we have to just leave everyone for awhile to sort this out. The Holy Spirit says, “You have people there who hold to the teaching of Balaam, who taught Balak to entice the Israelites to sin by eating food sacrificed to idols and by committing sexual immorality. Likewise you also have those who hold to the teaching of the Nicolaitans. Repent therefore!”. In my life, I had to separate from my entire family and friends to sort this out. (Rev 2:12-17)

See, we all want to be happy and be around happy people. And so we must separate from others to sort out who truly loves us and who doesn’t. And that is hard and is lonely. And during this time, a lot of us fall into temptation because of it. The Holy Spirit says, “I know your deeds, your love and faith, your service and perseverance, and that you are now doing more than you did at first. Nevertheless, …you tolerate that woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess. By her teaching she misleads my servants into sexual immorality and the eating of food sacrificed to idols.” During this time, I turned myself over to a woman. Remember, my addiction was people. You may be tempted to return to your addictive thing. But I heard my conscience telling me not to do it. And I went a little further, and my voice (conscience) got stronger and stronger until I just couldn’t ignore it. So before I consummated the relationship, I ended it. (Rev 2:18-29)
Well the loneliness started to get unbearable, but I knew I couldn’t do wrong things to fill that loneliness, and besides I was married at the time. Though I was separated, I cared a lot about my wife. And so I admitted that it was my problem and I entered a 12-step program. And though 12-step programs help a lot of people, I have found that the one I went to wasn’t Christ-specific, meaning it wasn’t affirmed by Christ through the spirit of His Word (Bible). And God told me that I must use the Bible.

So, God guided me to a therapist who loved Him and I just knew at this point that God was telling me to listen to her and not stray from her. And I gained true knowledge and was catapulted in healing. The Holy Spirit says, “Yet you have a few people in Sardis who have not soiled their clothes. They will walk with me, dressed in white, for they are worthy. He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white.” (Rev 3:1-6)

And God says, “I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm [non-committable]—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say [in fear and denial], ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see. Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” (Rev 3:14-22)

One day, I heard a beautiful and absolutely loving voice tell me, “You have done well. You were and are such a beautiful, sweet boy. I love you so much. I will be with you forever.” It was then that I knew I was God’s. I had discovered grace and Acceptance that led me to Devotion. It was then that I absolutely knew who my immediate enemy was. It was my biological father. One day, my father told me that there was absolutely no way that I wouldn’t become just like him and that he knew everything I was thinking and feeling even when he wasn’t around. He also claimed to be a holy man. From meeting with my therapist many times, I knew he was delusional and greatly disrespectful. There was such a huge eruption inside of me, as if he was trying to replace my True Father. And whether I was scared or not, what was said next was said by a force so much greater than me. I faced him and told him, “How dare you speak to me like that! Who do you think you are? I will not tolerate this kind of thinking.” It was then that I cowered him to his knees as he tried to apologize. Soon thereafter, I said goodbye for good. And as the Spirit promised, “These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. I will make those who are of the synagogue of Satan, who claim to be Jews though they are not, but are liars—I will make them come and fall down at your feet and acknowledge that I have loved you.” (Rev 3:7-13)

After all the above, I knew that when God says go, I go. There wasn’t a “maybe tomorrow” or lukewarmness about it anymore. Yes, I felt immense joy and freedom defeating that enemy by accepting and devoting myself to God., but I still felt that it couldn’t be over. I still felt as though I learned so little. So, I decided to devote myself to following Christ even further up the River. And then I heard God tell me to write down what He tells me to write down and share it with you in the end. I felt as if He said to me that He is going to teach me what I should have been taught in childhood. He is going to share Himself intimately with me (what He knows that He wants me to know). I was becoming secure. I was finally becoming a man. So, my therapist and I said goodbye and I walked with my Spirit. And I gained more Truth, (the Spirit’s wisdom) and it opened my eyes more to God and to Christ and to the Holy Spirit. And He and I shared everything with each other.

God loves you, my brother.

God loves you, my sister.


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Appendix V. Life in the 3rd Heaven

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
Today I will begin describing my life in the Third Heaven in obedience to God. And so this is what God says that I must obey:

September 15, 2017

Today My Son, you will learn of the Third Heaven, your home, and where I dwell. Come to me, and when you do, I will tell you the boundaries of the Third Heaven and how to live within it well.

1. I will send to you what you need. No more going out to get what you think you need. 2. You are to now concentrate only on your home and home life, making a happy home for yourself.

3. No more sending out things trying to tell others how to live their lives on My behalf. That job is over and no longer yours. No more sermons or books to give. That stuff and those times are over. Instead, you and your presence are My only message to others.

4. Delivering you all the time, day after day, throughout the day, is My deliverance to the world and no longer the writings and other things. For you going into the world is to be My only deliverance as it shows My children My strength, power, and wisdom in molding one such as yourself. 5. You are the epitome of Me and final product of My forming. As My finished product, you are an example and pride of what I desire as a human being. September 24, 2017

You now have your family completed. Unconditionally live, love, and give just within your family. For now on, any additional family members I will give to you; for, they will be the only family members you will need. Do not go out and seek them; I will bring them to you.


October 2, 2017

My son, look to Revelation 22:10-11. [Let the one who does wrong continue to do wrong; let the vile person continue to be vile; let the one who does right continue to do right; and let the holy person continue to be holy.] No longer are they anything to you. They are who they are.

For you must first let go of the world if I am to deliver you to it. This is so you will not lose focus of Me and do what the world does. Be not arrogant but be confident. Arrogance is being absorbed in your own strength, which is nothing. Confidence is being absorbed in Mine, which is everything. Give to the world from the outside—that is from afar—but do not “give-in” or go in to the world. Do not say, “But I am strong now.” You are not Me, you are human. Even Jesus doubted Me just before he died.

Now within a couple of weeks, you will know what I mean for you to deliver and how to deliver it. It may not be the book “The Seven Sermons”; it may just be you. If someone asks for the book, fine. If none asks for the book, fine. The book may even go one way, and you the other. Either way, soon you will have your answer. But in the meantime, continue to do what you are doing and continue to create an intimate home for yourself and those you love.

This is a hint of what is to come, My son. Peace is what I am preparing for you to be delivered into. This is why I am saying to continue doing what you are doing and soon you will know.


October 3, 2017

And I saw soon things to come. I peeked through the trees surrounding a beautiful garden, and to my surprise, behold it was I. The Spirit had delivered me to me. I was not God, but I was in the City of God within My beautiful garden He gave to me. In all this time, I—the real me—had never left it. Only my soul had left some time ago and got lost. All these years, I was the one waiting for me to come. And so, the prodigal son is arriving.

Soon my journey will be complete. I will be in the garden; my own room in God’s City. My home on earth will be transformed into a beautiful garden resembling the garden I view myself in. I am complete already; married to my Spirit to which my Spirit has allowed me to be handed over to my true self. For the Spirit wouldn’t have it any other way. It wants no facsimile of me. It only wants to be living with the real me and loving the real me for all eternity.

It reminds me of a vision I had written about some time ago. I was on one side of this bridge and on the other side, I saw myself. When I stepped on the bridge, it and I on the other side disappeared. Thus, the only way to get to the other side was to take the long way around by the path behind me. And so I took it, and at the end, there I was staring back at me.

Not there yet, perhaps there is one thing I must do first and that is to deliver my labor of love—a passion or love child—in some form or fashion with a spirit of its very own to the world as I stay home. For no one gets to be at Peace—that is, enter into the City of God—without first delivering to the world some form of passion between the love of he or she and his or her Spirit. For some it may be a biological child, and for others, a child in some other form. This book has been my labor of love with my Spirit for nearly 20 years now. And it is time now to deliver it as a mature human being.


December 3, 2019

And now I give to you my trilogy of books, including this one, freely and as part of my website so that I may now rest in peace within God’s Spirit Of Unconditional Love (SOUL). 

When I was a child and I was afraid, the only way I could get to sleep was to imagine myself lying in a safe space within a bubble or like a small room with my love standing on the outside of it telling all those bad things trying to get in to “Go away! My Child is sleeping.” And I not only slept, but I rested. Well, living a happy and peaceful life is pretty much like this. But now instead of love saying, “Go away! My Child is sleeping,” I’m living instead in that bubble that I call Life and in Love. I’ve expanded my room so greatly that I am no longer afraid and lonely because I have people and things I love and who love me filling it.

I don’t give it much thought anymore because I know my love is always there to protect me no matter what.  And I am happy and in love to this day.  And it has dawned on me this day that what I was laying within was God’s SOUL — that I did not realize that was God.  I just didn’t know what to call it.

And So I give to you:


‘Tis Thee O’ My Father

-For When You Need to Feel Found-

(Luke 15:11-32)


‘Tis thee o’ my Father,

Confused in what is real.

Lost to my wits and seeking out others,

For my soul to heal.

Following this and following that,

Searching everywhere.

And yet to no avail,

For here I reappear.

Of this place I know no mercy,

Of this place I know Nowhere.

No one knows the shame,

And the pain that I have hidden.

A shame that I obtained,

That I beg to be forgiven.

Comfort me my Father,

For I know not where to go.

Deliver to me your Truth,

So I will not feel alone.

Show to me your hands,

So that I may come nestle in your arms.

And make for me a bed,

As a newborn safe and warm.


Peace my sisters and brothers.





Scripture from New International Version (NIV) Bible, Zondervan Publishing.